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This seems to have become my official "go to" place to vent.
Right now I feel way better than I should. Not as in good but as in callous. However, the past few days when I've let my mind relax I ended up on the verge of tears. Ok ok, i'm not a macho man. I broke down a few times. Even at work, I left yesterday a bit early because I got all my work done and was doing next to nothing. I ended up not being able to stop thinking about the fact I wouldn't be making dinner for tracey that night, and that I wouldn't be talking to her either.
What I can say is I'm ridiculously thankful that I have some things to be seriously involved with again. Music/GoT/manga, mostly. And my new phone to play with.
Oh, seeing as this is my first post facebook break up, I don't know the etiquette of "ending the relationship". I've decided I'm making her do it, that is if we cant work things out. I've done nothing but love that girl for about 6 years. Took me a year to build the courage (and wait for proper circumstances) to go from friend to dating. I literally would have asked her to marry me if I got a job anywhere with a decent (read: above minimum wage) salary.
I was even window shopping rings to figure one out. So you think that I'd be crippled. I'm still hanging on to the hope that if she is apart from me she'll realize she does miss me and wants me around. At the same time though, I feel down but not to the extent I feel like I should. Odd. I suppose it will come and go. We'll see.
Right now I feel way better than I should. Not as in good but as in callous. However, the past few days when I've let my mind relax I ended up on the verge of tears. Ok ok, i'm not a macho man. I broke down a few times. Even at work, I left yesterday a bit early because I got all my work done and was doing next to nothing. I ended up not being able to stop thinking about the fact I wouldn't be making dinner for tracey that night, and that I wouldn't be talking to her either.
What I can say is I'm ridiculously thankful that I have some things to be seriously involved with again. Music/GoT/manga, mostly. And my new phone to play with.
Oh, seeing as this is my first post facebook break up, I don't know the etiquette of "ending the relationship". I've decided I'm making her do it, that is if we cant work things out. I've done nothing but love that girl for about 6 years. Took me a year to build the courage (and wait for proper circumstances) to go from friend to dating. I literally would have asked her to marry me if I got a job anywhere with a decent (read: above minimum wage) salary.
I was even window shopping rings to figure one out. So you think that I'd be crippled. I'm still hanging on to the hope that if she is apart from me she'll realize she does miss me and wants me around. At the same time though, I feel down but not to the extent I feel like I should. Odd. I suppose it will come and go. We'll see.