Hi, I've been lurking for some time.
First: categories. I like categories, mostly. Because if you have categories you can just say its name and don't have to waste time and energy trying to explain things. And categories give you a place. It's nice to be part of something, but I tend to worry if I really belong in some categories. If I'm doing it right and stuff.
I seem to be somewhere between hetero and asexual. I don't feel the need to have sex, but I am somewhat interested in guys. So I wonder if I still belong in the asexual category.
Okay, that was the long story short and it doesn't really explain much. I'm trying to get all the info together, but in my head it's a big pile of puzzle pieces. I know what the picture looks like, but you don't and I'm spending way too much time trying to get the pieces in order, so you can see the picture too. Argh. Explaining is be hard!
Short story a bit longer: I don't drool over muscles or nakedness (and I really don't understand it, I mean I look at pictures like that and think Why the hell would anyone think that's hot? Doesn't do anything for me.), it's much more of a mind thing for me. I don't know. I don't lust like others. I mean, I do fantasize, but I don't think I would ever realize it.
I said I don't feel the need to have sex. That sounds like I could do it if I had a reason. Baby making would be a good reason. But I don't think I want anything put in my vagina (or come out of it, holy shit, my periods are painful enough). I wonder: if I never tried it, how can I be sure? But oh god, the awkwardness! I think the awkwardness is absolutely not worth it. I don't trust people easily. No, that doesn't sound right - sounds like I'm paranoid (which I am a bit, but not that much about relationships). What I mean is that I don't make friendships that fast. Some people call others their friends just because they know them. That's not friendship. I'd definitely need a friendship before it can become something more.
Okay, that's everything I can think of right now. There's probably more, but my memory is bad.
So I don't know if it's a preference thing or an aspie thing that I could get over, maybe. Or a mix and the aspie thing is an important factor and should be counted.
See, now I explained. Naming a category would be easier.
I seem to be somewhere between hetero and asexual. I don't feel the need to have sex, but I am somewhat interested in guys. So I wonder if I still belong in the asexual category.
Okay, that was the long story short and it doesn't really explain much. I'm trying to get all the info together, but in my head it's a big pile of puzzle pieces. I know what the picture looks like, but you don't and I'm spending way too much time trying to get the pieces in order, so you can see the picture too. Argh. Explaining is be hard!
Short story a bit longer: I don't drool over muscles or nakedness (and I really don't understand it, I mean I look at pictures like that and think Why the hell would anyone think that's hot? Doesn't do anything for me.), it's much more of a mind thing for me. I don't know. I don't lust like others. I mean, I do fantasize, but I don't think I would ever realize it.
I said I don't feel the need to have sex. That sounds like I could do it if I had a reason. Baby making would be a good reason. But I don't think I want anything put in my vagina (or come out of it, holy shit, my periods are painful enough). I wonder: if I never tried it, how can I be sure? But oh god, the awkwardness! I think the awkwardness is absolutely not worth it. I don't trust people easily. No, that doesn't sound right - sounds like I'm paranoid (which I am a bit, but not that much about relationships). What I mean is that I don't make friendships that fast. Some people call others their friends just because they know them. That's not friendship. I'd definitely need a friendship before it can become something more.
Okay, that's everything I can think of right now. There's probably more, but my memory is bad.
So I don't know if it's a preference thing or an aspie thing that I could get over, maybe. Or a mix and the aspie thing is an important factor and should be counted.
See, now I explained. Naming a category would be easier.