Procrastination, Fear, Sabotage
Am I dealing with typical procrastination or fear, maybe both? Or maybe even some sabotage.
Here's the situation in a nutshell. I moved to Israel at the end of October from the USA so there a several governmental situations regarding finances in both countries I have to take care of. Yet I'm stuck and can barely get past making phone calls to get information on what I have to do.
Forgive me if this is too fragmented and long winded out but it was the only way I could write it without driving myself nuts.
Situation 1. I get federal disability from the US and have to go to the US consulate or embassy in Jerusalem to change my address since the paperwork I sent while was still in the states never got processed. (gov't blah). The open hours are crazy, which makes getting there from where I live extremely difficult. The building is in a highly Arab populated area.... considered not safe for a woman to go alone...especially for me since I don't speak any Arabic and my Hebrew really sucks. . When I get there I know I'm gonna be nervous as my previous dealing with gov't officials has always left me on the edge of tears.
This part I know is fear. Based upon what I read by declaring Israel my official resident I will most likely end up receiving less money than I get now.
I've known about needing to change my address since Dec/Jan but kept putting it off... timing didn't work out, didn't want to go alone no one to go with etc.
Problem with not getting this done is I have no valid address for Social Security to contact me...when I moved from the states I didn't forward my mail anywhere as was mostly junk mail. So if they need to contact me for a review or something I'm screwed and could be cut off completly. So whats keeping me stuck from getting this very important thing done? How do I overcome it and get it done.
I'm a bit motivated now but alas I cannot go take care of it now or for the next week and a half or so (recovering from surgery).
Situation 2 Being a new citizen I have certain rights one of which is a small stipend for the first 8 months to help you get on your feet. Supposedly I'm also entitled to get addition assistance if I'm not working after 6 months. I say supposed to because I have yet to make the phone call to find out who I need to talk to to find out what if any additional assistance I may qualify for. I know the agency is supposed to be user friendly for new immigrants and have people I can speak to in English but the last time I went there for something else I wasn't given the right information.(was told there was no bus benefits which I just found out there are free passes so I've been paying for the bus since Nov. I'm waiting for the card to arrive.) so I don't necessarily trust the information. There are two other agencies I can call to find out the information but again it seems that the right hand doesn't know what the left is doing or the laws keep changing. I feel stupid calling I never know if my question is clear. It just feels like an overwhelming task....call to find out who to speak to..to find out what benefits...and then find out where to go to apply...make an appointment....probably need some documentation.
So again, I ask whats stopping me really and how do I get over it?
Situation 3 applying for Israeli disability. Pretty much the same as above except when I do an actual appointment odds are I won't have an English speaking clerk so I will need to find someone who is fluent in Hebrew to come with me...not any easy task...I know so few people and how can I ask them to take off work.
I realize its pretty stupid of me not to take care of these important things. Especially if I can get money so I can get a place of my own. But for some reason I can't get my butt in gear. I get anxious even thinking about it sometimes.
Something is getting in the way am I sabotaging myself...making it so I have to live with my parents?
Would appreciate any insight.
Here's the situation in a nutshell. I moved to Israel at the end of October from the USA so there a several governmental situations regarding finances in both countries I have to take care of. Yet I'm stuck and can barely get past making phone calls to get information on what I have to do.
Forgive me if this is too fragmented and long winded out but it was the only way I could write it without driving myself nuts.
Situation 1. I get federal disability from the US and have to go to the US consulate or embassy in Jerusalem to change my address since the paperwork I sent while was still in the states never got processed. (gov't blah). The open hours are crazy, which makes getting there from where I live extremely difficult. The building is in a highly Arab populated area.... considered not safe for a woman to go alone...especially for me since I don't speak any Arabic and my Hebrew really sucks. . When I get there I know I'm gonna be nervous as my previous dealing with gov't officials has always left me on the edge of tears.
This part I know is fear. Based upon what I read by declaring Israel my official resident I will most likely end up receiving less money than I get now.
I've known about needing to change my address since Dec/Jan but kept putting it off... timing didn't work out, didn't want to go alone no one to go with etc.
Problem with not getting this done is I have no valid address for Social Security to contact me...when I moved from the states I didn't forward my mail anywhere as was mostly junk mail. So if they need to contact me for a review or something I'm screwed and could be cut off completly. So whats keeping me stuck from getting this very important thing done? How do I overcome it and get it done.
I'm a bit motivated now but alas I cannot go take care of it now or for the next week and a half or so (recovering from surgery).
Situation 2 Being a new citizen I have certain rights one of which is a small stipend for the first 8 months to help you get on your feet. Supposedly I'm also entitled to get addition assistance if I'm not working after 6 months. I say supposed to because I have yet to make the phone call to find out who I need to talk to to find out what if any additional assistance I may qualify for. I know the agency is supposed to be user friendly for new immigrants and have people I can speak to in English but the last time I went there for something else I wasn't given the right information.(was told there was no bus benefits which I just found out there are free passes so I've been paying for the bus since Nov. I'm waiting for the card to arrive.) so I don't necessarily trust the information. There are two other agencies I can call to find out the information but again it seems that the right hand doesn't know what the left is doing or the laws keep changing. I feel stupid calling I never know if my question is clear. It just feels like an overwhelming task....call to find out who to speak to..to find out what benefits...and then find out where to go to apply...make an appointment....probably need some documentation.
So again, I ask whats stopping me really and how do I get over it?
Situation 3 applying for Israeli disability. Pretty much the same as above except when I do an actual appointment odds are I won't have an English speaking clerk so I will need to find someone who is fluent in Hebrew to come with me...not any easy task...I know so few people and how can I ask them to take off work.
I realize its pretty stupid of me not to take care of these important things. Especially if I can get money so I can get a place of my own. But for some reason I can't get my butt in gear. I get anxious even thinking about it sometimes.
Something is getting in the way am I sabotaging myself...making it so I have to live with my parents?
Would appreciate any insight.