Sometimes, I wish

[ashtray_gxrl]

People would just leave me alone. I wish I wasn't so well known so that I wouldn't have so many rumors spread about me, and that my myspace wouldn't be hacked or false blogs made. I don't even know what's going on but it's really upsetting.  A girl shouldn't be made to feel like a slut just because she's been with one guy and enjoys sex with him. I'm 18 years old, I've been with Alex for over a year now. I think I should be allowed to have sex with him if I want to and like it. I should be allowed to share my opinions with everyone else without getting a reputation as an opinionated bitch. With all the other stuff I've had to deal with this month, now I'm a slut for it. It's hard enough being in a long distance relationship and trying to see each other all the time, we don't need people in our business and making up stuff about us, too. I deal with enough emotional bs without needing that, too. And I have to deal with it alone because my friends don't care and my boyfriend is 300 miles away and all we have is a phone.  I just can't wait for June. I will be so happy when I get to live with him and not have to worry about anyone here or about what anyone thinks. And I know some people will sit there and think "Well you shouldn't care what everyone thinks anyway," well normally, I don't, but when it's my boyfriend's family and my entire school that spreads things, it starts to take a toll, especially when they pick a time when I'm already dealing with stuff. I have probably been dealing with chronic depression for quite some time but I'm refusing to get help for it because I don't want to be labeled as a crazy person. 
I just wish people would let me be happy for once.
Well, in happier news, I get to see my Kissyfur in six days. :D