Just so you know, I only update when something's wrong, when I'm in a bad mood. & that's why my entire journal is so negative, and marbid. I havn't updated in a while meaning eversince my last entry things have been good. & I'm updating today because my whole family is gay.

( here I go again. )

I've been so stressed out lately. Stressed about everything possible: college, friends, work, music, my bedroom radiator, my ipod, health, christmas, birthday, my parents, mike ela, italian class, my wardrobe, my lack of self-confidence, yearbook & graduation, and 'a certain someone'.

( we're still so young desperate for attention )

Acceptance broke up.Jason left. Yea, Jason, the lead singer, my favorite one, the one who made the band what it is, left. Amazingly, this is worse than Kevin leaving the Backstreet Boys. It's 3000x worse ( Read more... )

I'm exhausted. I've been up and runnin since 7am. It's 10:30 and my day's finally over. Dead tired. So school was okay besides, "Aww, why didn't you dress up?!" Jesus, because I'm me and I don't want unnecessary attention. I'd be too worried about how dumb I look anyway ( Read more... )

I was having a terrible morning. I changed my outfit 7 1/2 times. I hate days when I have abs. nothing to wear. Gay part is I ended up wearing the first thing I had on. So my pants were unhemmed, and I got them about a week ago but hadn't gotten the chance to get them fixed. I wore them anyway. Bad idea. It was raining. They were way too long. ( Read more... )

Everything's going wrong.

I hate life. I hate school. I hate everyone around me. I hate everything. HATE IT. HATE IT. HATE IT.

Don't ask what happened.

Not going to college. Working at CVS for life. Never going to get married and have kids. Being alone forever won't be so bad.

&that's just like him ( Read more... )

Don't bother reading. Just complaints, obvious facts, dumb statements and everything in between.

Some people are reallyyy dumb. Had a bad, stressful, tiring day bt in a good mood. Not looking forward to becoming a member of the CVS crew. Adam, the manager, is hotttt stuff. HOT STUFF. Training tomorrow. Today's Law&Order night. Stabler rocks my ( Read more... )

Ohhhh what a day. So i started to update earlier but I went out at around 6. I couldn't finish it. I just finished homework, Project Runway, shower, dinner, and everything else. I was in such a good mood earlier. Someone that I hadn't seen in like 2 weeks, finally talked to me. But only because we purposely went into his homeroom just so I could ( Read more... )

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

I'm not going to even say it anymore. I've said it enough.

now all those feelings,
those yesterday's feelings will all be lost in time.
but today i’ve wasted away, for today is on my mind.
today is on my mind.
now i can't care to worry,
i’m feeling so lonely,
breaking apart all this love in my heart.
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I hate school. I really really really did not want Mike in any of my classes, escpecially English. & guess what? He's in Physics, Italian, and English. Ickkkkkkkk. I'm always worried about what he thinks of me, so that's why I don't want to be in the same room with him. But Duyen's in 3 of my classes, Amanda and Heather are in one. & Francesca's in ( Read more... )