this could last forever.
Ohhhh what a day. So i started to update earlier but I went out at around 6. I couldn't finish it. I just finished homework, Project Runway, shower, dinner, and everything else. I was in such a good mood earlier. Someone that I hadn't seen in like 2 weeks, finally talked to me. But only because we purposely went into his homeroom just so I could see him. Anyways, I was having a really really good day even though physically I felt the worst. Maddddd congested.
That all changed. After going to the high school to help out for the "Know Your School Better Night", I got so stressed out. College. I am not going to make it through this year. It's three weeks into school, and I can't take it anymore. Everyone knows what they're doing, where they're going, and how they plan to do it. I've got nothing. I'm so lost. I should be trying to work something out instead of, "Yay, he talked to me today!" or "Ugh, Mike hates me. I suck at life."
Everyone around me has got everything figured out, and is so much smarter than me. I feel totally out of place. I just need some guidance. I need help. This is bad but, sometimes I wish I had just gone through with my suicide 2 years ago.
I hate life.
we'll see if i start coming clean
you'll see that i'm stll missing..
j.vena<3333333