I have come to realize something.

This is how it's going to be for a while - at least until May.  Cronic illness, at least, mostly mono and whatever develops naturally from being around college students who can't afford to have another sick day.  I am going to be sick and I am going to be tired and there's not a damn thing I can do about it.  I'm ( Read more... )

 Being sick this often has done a number on both my physical and mental state.

Physically, I'm still constantly exhausted.  If I don't get at least ten hours of sleep, I'm barely functional.  I just don't have the energy to pull off anything much more exerting than walking to the bus, to class, and back home.  This, in turn, makes it hard for me to ( Read more... )

 I keep getting compliments about how great I look now that I lost this much weight ( Read more... )

Goddammit mono, I have theory homework to do.  Another few hours of it.  No, I'm not going to get the 12-14 hours of sleep that you want me to, so shut the hell up and let me work.

I have mono.  I have to drop all but two classes, pending doctor approval.

Strangely, this puts me in a much better mood than I was a few days ago.  Something about knowing why I'm this sick is comforting.  It means I can do something about it, like sleep and drink orange juice.  Can't fence for six weeks, but hey, shit happens.  As long as I take ( Read more... )

I almost died last night.  Not in the "oh shit I almost got hit by a car" sort of accident death, but the "I almost took four bottles worth of prescription meds and a dozen shots of alcohol" sort of death.  I'm tired of hurting, both physically and mentally.

I'm tired of waking up several times a night because the pain jolts me awake.  I want to ( Read more... )

I would like to tell you all something straightforward about myself ( Read more... )

I had a depressive episode this morning ( Read more... )

Hell is the first two days after a depo shot.

You're both depressed and nauseated.  You feel mentally and physically miserable.

I'm better now but holy shit.

Good news:  I don't have mono!  I can fence and get in fights with Nathan without worrying about the Magical Exploding Spleen.

Bad news:  I have the sinus infection from hell and it's been there for almost three weeks without meds.  Have to be on antibiotics three times a day to kick the shit out of it.

Mixed feelings.  On the one hand, yay no mono ( Read more... )