On Weight Loss
I keep getting compliments about how great I look now that I lost this much weight
On one level, I like it. I do look better and I'm enjoying looking better.
Mostly, though? I hate it. Yeah, it's nice being 175ish instead of 210, but you want to know how I got there? Illness. I got sick and lost my appetite. I basically lost 35lbs by sheer starvation. Do I cheer? Hell no, I feel horrible. Yeah, I wanted to lose that weight, but I wanted to do it by eating better and exercising more. Y'know, a nice healthy way.
And I know there's some friends of mine who'd tell me to stop complaining and enjoy it, but how can I enjoy this? And when I do get a small ego boost by buying size 12 pants, I feel horribly guilty about it. I didn't earn this, I just got my ass kicked by mono and tooth extraction.
But at least this gives me a head start into actually eating right and excercising. Y'know, when I can eat.
On one level, I like it. I do look better and I'm enjoying looking better.
Mostly, though? I hate it. Yeah, it's nice being 175ish instead of 210, but you want to know how I got there? Illness. I got sick and lost my appetite. I basically lost 35lbs by sheer starvation. Do I cheer? Hell no, I feel horrible. Yeah, I wanted to lose that weight, but I wanted to do it by eating better and exercising more. Y'know, a nice healthy way.
And I know there's some friends of mine who'd tell me to stop complaining and enjoy it, but how can I enjoy this? And when I do get a small ego boost by buying size 12 pants, I feel horribly guilty about it. I didn't earn this, I just got my ass kicked by mono and tooth extraction.
But at least this gives me a head start into actually eating right and excercising. Y'know, when I can eat.