The end of the road.

[arthurpendragon]

Well, it finally has come to an end. I never thought it would. In someways, deep down inside, a part of me wished it could go on forever; all of it. The being in school, the living at home, the having fun (not that I did a lot of that lately). But there is a world out there that I need to survive in. I am a pretty mature person, but there are a few things I still need to understand and learn about. I also need to overcome my fear of failure, in all its forms. Most of my indecision in life comes from my fear of failing- as a person, friend, student, son, worker, etc.

But, it is ironic since I haven't failed and I am quite blessed. I wonder what God has in store for me, and how I can best serve Him in life. Whether to marry or not, if so who, when, how. Where to work, here or elsewhere. I have become quite disconnected from my self-centered desires that may or may not be God's will, but it is still difficult to determine the answers of what to do. For this quarter, I have some continuity still, so I am given that buffer zone. I need to make the most of it in all ways. I do hope to relax a little bit, even if just in being able to just realize I have no more thesis anymore. In fact, I suppose this will technically be the last use of my Thesis, and PhD tags. It is a surreal moment. Hello new day.