Happenings
First week of the new job on my own has been, well, good and bad I guess. From the standpoint of having social anxiety problems it's almost torture. It's a very communication oriented job. I'm constantly talking with people, having meetings, etc. Even had to do an interview on Friday. On that same note though, it seems like I'm becoming desensitized to it pretty quickly.
The interview went really smoothly, I was surprised. This was to hire someone to take over the job I was doing previously. I was pretty nervous about doing it but once I sat down and got started I calmed down fast. That's a thing with me. I'll work myself up over something, half the time something stupid, and get all on edge and nervous about it. Then when I finally go and do whatever it is I end up doing fine. It's funny, cuz it's not me being nervous that I can't do it, it's me being nervous that I'll screw up -because- I'm so nervous :P What is that, irony? Self-fulfilling prophecy? :P
But yeah, I'm 'starting' to relax a bit I guess. Still pretty on the stressed out side, but dealing. Been taking St. John's Wort, which has a pretty small but still noticeable effect.
Would be nice to find a med/herb that actually works well for me that doesn't make me celibate and/or try to kill me. Would be nice, but I'm not holding my breath. Some days it feels like even the harshest sideeffects are worth not feeling the way I do, but I know I could only put up with something like that for so long. We'll see, I guess I needa make another appt soon. Not so enthused about that.
Anywho, sleep time its late, nights.
The interview went really smoothly, I was surprised. This was to hire someone to take over the job I was doing previously. I was pretty nervous about doing it but once I sat down and got started I calmed down fast. That's a thing with me. I'll work myself up over something, half the time something stupid, and get all on edge and nervous about it. Then when I finally go and do whatever it is I end up doing fine. It's funny, cuz it's not me being nervous that I can't do it, it's me being nervous that I'll screw up -because- I'm so nervous :P What is that, irony? Self-fulfilling prophecy? :P
But yeah, I'm 'starting' to relax a bit I guess. Still pretty on the stressed out side, but dealing. Been taking St. John's Wort, which has a pretty small but still noticeable effect.
Would be nice to find a med/herb that actually works well for me that doesn't make me celibate and/or try to kill me. Would be nice, but I'm not holding my breath. Some days it feels like even the harshest sideeffects are worth not feeling the way I do, but I know I could only put up with something like that for so long. We'll see, I guess I needa make another appt soon. Not so enthused about that.
Anywho, sleep time its late, nights.