here we go again
i give my heart away so easily. i don't know why. i always used to keep it locked up so safe and secure, but lately, it hasn't taken as much to get past my defenses. i had sex with jeff. that was an unexpected twist. to make matters more potentially volatile, it was amazing. i don't know where this is going to head, but i am trying to fight my better judgement to run away scared or scare him off by taking things entirely too seriously. maureen says that the universe gives us what we need, and if that is the case and this is what i need, then i have to try not to mess things up this time. this time maybe it'll run a little smoother. we'll see