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Ok that's it. I'm heading home at the end of the summer. I have had enough.
Between constantly being sick, having a job that makes me want to tear my hair out every other day and no chance to do anything with anyone ever I've had it. I gave it my best shot and it's got me nowhere. I've tried to make other friends in the area, but the fact is I can't arrange anything with anyone for during the week because my shifts vary from one week to the next and everyone I know has other arrangements for the weekends. I'm sick, I'm bored, I'm lonely and feeling just a tiny bit abandoned by everyone but my immediate family.
Shame really, I do love living down here, but there's no point staying when there doesn't seem to be anyone to enjoy it with and there's no point in getting myself seriously depressed when I have other options.
Ok, now I've had a chance to get some sleep that's a bit harsh. It's just I haven't see anyone other than the family I live with and my work colleagues for months now. Maybe this is my fault, I mean I hardly put in the effort to try and see people after work. The thing is I can't exactly arrange stuff if I'm going to be on a late or if something crops up that I've got to stay late on an early {stupid fucking buses}. I also intensely dislike that things that my age group is completely obssessed with so I just don't have anything in common with anyone. I am making an effort though guys, I won't just switch off if you start yammering on about soaps and the latest celebrity stuff. And the reason I dislike clubs so much is because they're loud and confusing places and I hate music that's being blasted to way above my pain threshold {besides when you've got people talking/screaming/shouting/having their children cry in the end of their phone at you all day your ears *will* hurt at the end of it}.
I just.... want something else to do other than sit here by myself all the time. Is that too much to ask?
Edit again: I'm taking a break from online except from skype and email. I need to talk to someone profession about this.
Between constantly being sick, having a job that makes me want to tear my hair out every other day and no chance to do anything with anyone ever I've had it. I gave it my best shot and it's got me nowhere. I've tried to make other friends in the area, but the fact is I can't arrange anything with anyone for during the week because my shifts vary from one week to the next and everyone I know has other arrangements for the weekends. I'm sick, I'm bored, I'm lonely and feeling just a tiny bit abandoned by everyone but my immediate family.
Shame really, I do love living down here, but there's no point staying when there doesn't seem to be anyone to enjoy it with and there's no point in getting myself seriously depressed when I have other options.
Ok, now I've had a chance to get some sleep that's a bit harsh. It's just I haven't see anyone other than the family I live with and my work colleagues for months now. Maybe this is my fault, I mean I hardly put in the effort to try and see people after work. The thing is I can't exactly arrange stuff if I'm going to be on a late or if something crops up that I've got to stay late on an early {stupid fucking buses}. I also intensely dislike that things that my age group is completely obssessed with so I just don't have anything in common with anyone. I am making an effort though guys, I won't just switch off if you start yammering on about soaps and the latest celebrity stuff. And the reason I dislike clubs so much is because they're loud and confusing places and I hate music that's being blasted to way above my pain threshold {besides when you've got people talking/screaming/shouting/having their children cry in the end of their phone at you all day your ears *will* hurt at the end of it}.
I just.... want something else to do other than sit here by myself all the time. Is that too much to ask?
Edit again: I'm taking a break from online except from skype and email. I need to talk to someone profession about this.