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Very confused as to how I feel about going back to London. In one way I'm really looking forward to getting away from the stress I feel here but then at the same time I have an equal amount of stress there. I just have security in things that I probably don't want and surely that's not a good thing? I do feel a desperate need to move on but I kinda feel like everything i was trying and needing to escape from still sits here because its all inside me I guess. I am the problem here. I attatch too much to people and do too much and give people the wrong idea... I need people so much it's crazy. I think so much about it. As while I am here and alone and I know that outside there is no excitement and that people are arseholes most of the time and there is nothing here for me that makes me want to leave the house. I am so bloody restless all the time! God I can't properly explain it, but i really need something more.