BUT in between torturing me with a lot of nonsensical shit I won't go into and some tedious hypnogogic stuff which revealed how dull my priorities are at the moment (OMG WHAT IF THE REFURB AT THE GYM REMOVES EQUIPMENT I WANT TO USE? WHAT IF I'M ACTUALLY BEING VERY LAZY AFTER ALL MY FRIENDS ARE DOING TRX CLASSES WITH WEIGHTS WHY CAN I NOT STOMACH ( Read more... )

YesterdayAbout the usual amounts of strife; I went to one cafe to do writing/editing work, decided to be nice and go somewhere with Jess briefly after lunch, had one fight about her insisting on having a shower and then taking forever to actually get around to doing this, then another about the fact that she doesn't listen to things like "I will ( Read more... )

It'll all be over soon ( Read more... )

Poetry

old world genealogy

Any time my dreams would like to stop being horrific kidnappings of my consciousness awash with guilt and misery and hell I would be fully on board with this decision.

Well I sure haven't checked my flist in a while, whoops ( Read more... )

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I dreamed I was trying to leave Rome on a train to get to France and was staying in a hostel overnight. For some reason I was going to go to a nightclub with a bunch of other people staying there, one of whom was mysteriously Lucian. I think I decided against it when I realised that both of us were going to be wearing the same outfit (not one ( Read more... )

HAVE A GOOD CHRISTMAS/ARBITRARY DAY OFF/NOT DAY OFF also feel free to stop reading after this if you like, I will only be complainingMy brain is not going to take a break just because it's an arbitrarily-defined calendar day. It has mostly been a good one, though - presents of exciting sort, a nice AVALANCHE OF CALORIES (which I can berate myself ( Read more... )

1. I am shit at my job. My boss comes to tell me that they've been letting me off until now but i am going to have to be perfect or i will be fired. No one corrects him with the waking truth that i am consistently one of the best in my sector, because my dream is my feelings and they don't believe I'm any good.

When i wake up i analyse where this ( Read more... )

Good news, I had a nightmare so bad that after I woke up once and was put back fucking into the same dream I got up at ass o'clock in the morning and refused to get back into bed ( Read more... )