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[apiphile]

This is a reminder to myself that my brain turns into toxic waste every January, that this paranoia is mental health related, and that we are in a recession and no one is fucking judging me for not having a job interview after less than a month of half-assed looking. I have friends with better qualifications and more experience who have been out of

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[ayelienne]

I support this reminder!

[wolfy_writing]

The only time I've ever been able to find a job in less than a year was when it involved being hired by my father. And I know so many extremely employable people who have gone considerably longer trying to find anything. It isn't you that sucks, it's the economy.

Yeah, your brain is being pointlessly mean. I mean if "Having anything in common with someone else means you're exactly like them", then the whole "Vegetarian who paints" thing would make me Hitler. (Although I get that this is one of those "Only applies to the self, and not to any other people" things.)

There isn't much more than a month until March, so reminding yourself things will get better than is good.

[apiphile]

Yeah, and the fact that there are fewer jobs coming up than there were this time last year kind of signals that too. :(

It's more that because they're my parents I don't have any choice but to turn into them and everything I do just leads me back to being a delusional self-important unemployed arts fucker. See also: both of my parents.

Either they'll get better or I'll get less wound up by it.

[wolfy_writing]

I'm wondering if people in the Great Depression were as prone to self-blame over 'laziness' as the people I know in this one are?

Well, the only parts of that I'd agree with is that you're currently unemployed and you do arts.

Given that positive thinking (while not the magic that obnoxious jackasses like to make it seem) does have some positive effects, being less wound up is likely to make things tangibly better in some way.

[apiphile]

I'm guessing not since the whole poisonous WINNERS BY STATE OF MIND mentality self-help business didn't start up until after WW2, and job-hunting in those days was more physical, so you couldn't feel like "well I'm just sitting at home all day" (yeah, because everyone takes applications online, derpface). But hey, economic depression and the emotional kind clearly go together.

Yeah one of the positive effects is "I feel less like ass and can therefore DO THINGS instead of being paralysed by my own inadequacy"...