Jan 24, 2013 00:42
This is a reminder to myself that my brain turns into toxic waste every January, that this paranoia is mental health related, and that we are in a recession and no one is fucking judging me for not having a job interview after less than a month of half-assed looking. I have friends with better qualifications and more experience who have been out of work for longer and put a lot more effort in. No one is expecting anything.
On that note I really need to stop roaring around the back of my own head turning everything into "this is why you're your mother, this is why you're your father". No, it doesn't matter. For fuck's sake, just do what makes you happy for a bit and stop screaming about having the brakes on. IT'S THE SHIT BIT OF THE YEAR, THIS HAPPENS EVERY YEAR, YOU WILL STOP FEELING LIKE THIS BY MARCH, THERE IS NO POINT IN DRINKING BLEACH OR WHATEVER ELSE IT IS YOU THINK YOU SHOULD BE DOING.
derek has the crazy