Feb 07, 2009 01:20
Who knew staying at home could be so fun?
I began my evening being contacted via the Facebook messenger system by Bree asking me about whether I had any birthday plans. I told her that with two friends celebrating birthdays in the weekends before and after mine that I didn't have any set plans, but that I may hang out with them. I told her that if she wanted to do something on my birthday that I may go to dinner but that no plans had been made for that either. Unfortunately it's a school night for her and I don't want her to drive into town twice in a week just to hang out with me, so I told her to pick a weekend that she could make it should we decide on just one day. She picked Friday the 13th, and when I asked what she wanted to do, she suggested a scary movie. There's a number to choose from, including a new Friday the 13th movie. We tentatively made plans for next Friday.
Speaking purely as someone who doesn't know up from down when it comes to flirtation from the opposite sex, I'm wondering if she was planning on these things and is thinking of it as a date. I'd have no problem if she were. In fact, I'd be ecstatic. She made all of the suggestions and almost seemed to have planned it a little more in advance than I'd thought. Maybe it's all just wishful thinking on my part, but I've had such mixed signals from the last time we hung out (a night in which everything was off kilter) that I really don't know. She tells me she doesn't date her friends, but gave me indication that she liked me at one time and possibly still does. She offered to drive and paid for our dinner, but talked about how she wished the third person in the car were single because she wants to kiss him. She didn't give me a hug when I greeted her or left her, (something she always does) but didn't mind as we sat in her car for three hours in the wee hours of the a.m. singing songs, despite her needing to get home and then go to school the next day.
Maybe I need to go for it and jump on any signal I get next weekend....which could also be a disaster, because when her friend tried this on new year's eve, she nearly had a panic attack. At the very least I should tell her how I feel about her and at least get it off of my chest.
There was also an all evening chat session that lasted a good four or five hours with someone who I'm friends with, but have probably only said a few sentences to in real life. I'm not really liking the idea of another long distance friendship, but I figure I'll see where it goes. She is a great person to talk to and I feel comfortable explaining things to her, which is nice. I'm doing my best this year to share and talk about my past issues with people rather than dwell on them and let them play a role in my future and she's a great listener.
On top of that, my friend Kelli sent me a Facebook request, years after we last spoke. It was a boost that I needed from someone who I'd forgotten about but that found me and decided to seek me out for whatever reason. It's not like she's one of those people who adds everyone either. People who she's better friends with than I aren't on there. It's like a private club.
These things don't beat having a secure job, a working car, a clear mind on the matter of dating, but they help when you figured it'd be just another Friday night at home.