diamonds are a girl's best friend
"sometimes i find i get to thinking of the past.
we swore to each other then
that our love would surely last.
you kept right on loving,
i went on a fast,
now i am too thin and your love is too vast.
i choose the rooms that i live in with care,
the windows are small and the walls almost bare,
there's only one bed and there's only one prayer;
i listen all night for your step on the stair.
oh sometimes i see her undressing for me,
she's the soft naked lady love meant her to be
and she's moving her body so brave and so free.
if i've got to remember that's a fine memory.
and i know from her eyes
and i know from her smile
that tonight will be fine,
will be fine, will be fine, will be fine
for a while."
joshua left me a message where he sang that to me, he knows he's not amazing, but i think it's nice. this is by leonard cohen originally but he prefers the peddy thompson version. he has that sort of voice that says in one soft tone, and not all over the place, or shaky, clear and through. saved it for a smile if whenever i need one.
i was talking on the phone with josh the other day and he's been trying to collect musical instruments and somewhat teach himself to play. he had a harmonica and he was playing mary had a little lamb for maybe ten minutes or so and i said something along the lines of "josh, it's getting a little repetitive. joke! but i did want to talk with you if you don't mind, i'm just tired." and he seemed alright until maybe a half hour later he sounded a little depressed and i asked him about it and it was the harmonica deal. i was really sorry, he's really sensitive. i find it cute but i don't like when people hold it in, i like to know on the spot. he said like the one time he told me that he was so happy when he blew his first gum bubble this one time back and he did like two years ago and i said something like "psh, i've been blowing bubbles since i was seven" he gets sensitive with firsts i guess. but i meant it all in good humor, just joshing, har.
my aunt lila was disconnected yesterday, i still don't believe it. my mom won't let me go to the funeral which is tomorrow. i bet you she would let me if this stupid suessical thing wasn't going on. it never hits me that a person is dead until i see it with my own eyes, that's when i breakdown. same thing happened with cecilia, that was hard.
check this out: "this phenomenon is called menstrual sychrony. doctors aren't sure exactly why, but it may have something to do with pheromones--hormonelike chemicals released by the body. the theory is that they stimulate ovulation, and when women spend a lot of time together, their bodies pick up each other's pheromones and get the message to ovulate. when you ovulate together, you menstruate together!" i trinkled, and most of my friends and i (including my mom) have our periods at the same time.
i just realized that the abc song and twinkle twinkle little star have the same melody.