princess dewdrop
"when my nose bleeds interminably
and you show me your delicate string lines,
the world seems much delightfully smaller.
my letters possess new curls, a happy slant, when i write to you.
it is kinder, it is all kinder, when your shoulders happen as rooftops
and you lean like a bar-chord into me, a semaphore to the end.
so let us race sundown forever, let us turn corners, fall on our backs forever,
let us watch the grand migrations of clouds forever. call me your darling
on that street corner again, fit our bones together in the long grasses again.
don't let monday ever come. "
sharpiefied
the first, christie, jake and i went in joelles living room after the show. we had a small talk about nothings and watched a small comedy musical about theatre etiquette. i remember with the mr. joe look-alike chorus teacher gave us theatre etiquette tests every other friday. watch a musical on the huge theatre like screen and pretend it was being performed for us, it was easy because it was the school's theatre. clark county highschool was so nice. she mad christie and me a mix of pina colada and rum. i usually only drink a small cup on holidays, had mine, it was alright, tasted like rum raisin eventhough it was coconut. christie doesn't like alcohol but she felt rude so she pretended to drink it and i chugged it down when joelle went to put away some cups in the dishwasher. i felt a little weird after that but i thought it was a nice thing to do.
the second, that morning i had sats. went in line and coincidentally met up with anna goselin right at that spot. i ahven't seen her since january so that was nice. we took the exam in the same room too, 140. our test administrator was an older lady with what i forget what it's called, but where your bones just twist and stay like that in different directions, like feet turned out, fingers closed in and thumbs bent back. took from eight in the morning until one in the afternoon. i was worried i wouldn't finish, i think i may have to test for add/adhd in all seriousness. i get distracted very easily, spend to long into questions and wander off and connect the answers and questions to past times or future times. i was determined to finish each section though, with the clock's help i moderated myself pretty well and finished each section right on time. i'm actually more worried about the english section. math should be good. my essay was short, i write slow when i write neat.
alot of tetris played, talked to ryan, joelle and jake after the show on the couches. ryan's mom called in between very afraid because there was a racoon squirrel in their tree in front of the door, and warned him to be careful when he came in. it was adorable. his girlfriend and him are over. he doesn't want to move to new york because he wants to be a social worker and he says he would never find a job because he's not bilingual. he may go to this trip to florida to visit his one friend he almost had a thing with. for five days, i personally think they would hook up if he does that. it was strange, he then left all of the sudden even though he said he would eat with us. we went to walmart to get jake some self-tanner, he bought the neutrogena gradual kind. what was funny was i had a round em up shirt on with fishnets and he had a cowboy hat, unplanned, people stared, glad i didn't run into anyone i knew. the wendys by the mall had no one at the intercom though they were open so went went back to church street and ate in the parking lot in front of the ymca/ywca. it took me an hour to eat half of the large combo chicken nugget order, it was 1:30 and 2:30 would not be worth to wait, considering the sunday show.
the third, show went well. went to amies afterwards, we watched pulse and epic movie. i only watched half of epic movie before, wasn't all that good. pulse could of been a good movie, if it weren't for it's dumb ending. the guy josh was attractive, even though he had a slight lisp. talked to kelsie a little on stress and ate chocolate pretzels. mom was going crazy when i called her, even though i told her i would be going to amies, she said something like you should of been here at seven, that woman, i swear, i lover her but she was screaming how she passed by cybert street and i wasn't where i said i was even though i so was. i was like did you knock on the door? because we were in the basement. she said no, and i said well there you go. but she still thinks i lied, o well.
the fourth, i woke up hearing bad news about my great aunt lila, she had a heart attack and hospitalized in a comma, bad blood entered the brain to the point were in was non-operational. they're deciding today, all four siblings if they want to keep her connected to life support. a sad thing, my grandma was suppose to come on the second, if she did, lila would have had no one there at three in the morning, she would of surely died right then. it was a hard thing for my grandma, she called teh ambulance and they didn't arrive until another hour. new york city is crazy. i feel a lot of sympathy for her too because she is watching all her youngers sisters die, her being the oldest. my step-dad's car broke down, we tried renting, no cars to rent, so we borrowed a friend's car to drive to new york. i didn't get to see her but my mom did. the doctors are rude there. they told her, standing right next to lila, knowing she can hear "you know she's practically dead right?" because my mom was talking to her, her heart beat was rising when she said that. that made me mad. life isn't a signicant thing when there are so many people, just focused on opening another bed for the other thousands that come a day. we were going to stay the night but a lot of people flew in from florida and dominican republic and we didn't want to take up the space where they could sleep. hotel is very expensive in new york. we went to a twenty-four hour korean cuisine we use to go to when we lived in the city. just like old times, it was delicious. we had ox meat, frog, and beef. frog isn't too bad. it's tastes like real soft chicken. ox meat was my favorite. we were driving but my step-dad was half-asleep so we couldn't drive another hour and checked in at a hotel. mom and i slept in one bed, this was at three in the morning. we then went to the creek mall and i got some underwear from calvin klein, a fossil watch, some chocolate cherries, and a harry and davids extra dark chocolate bar. everything seemed to be on sale. i which i had more money on me. treated everyone to subway though, had a meatball marinara sub. worked out with my mom at the gym for an hour too.
today i woke up rather late, had an orthodonist appointment and my teeth hurt. babysat, colored in coloring books of the land before time and watched blue's clues. i really like the old steve, i had a crush on him since forever. musical theatre class we didn't do too much, until the last fifteen minutes. we were looking for the sets, only one-third was found. i'm getting a mic for competition, not sure about recital. cleaned all of backstage and now for my room. rooms get messy too quick.
ps: while i was babysitting i was sitting in a rocking chair leaning forward to the television so my back was semi-exposed. noah was behind me and said "why is your butt brown?" i laughed real hard and i felt bad because he really wanted to know, and i said because i'm brown and he said oh, small children are so innocent and cute. on my way to my mother's work because the back door had the locks activated their was this drunk man and i saw the beer drops on the light cement made a perfect wave. we had to wait an hour and a half for my dad with front door key so i bicycled on the work out bike they're throwing away, i may keep it.
pps: liz claiborne is definitely where i'm buying polos for the highschool next year, not only were they the only polos i've ever liked, but i would wear them outside of school too. i think it was all golf wear too. excellent prints.