Everything
He's everything I want. No less. Even the problems don't seem like problems. I'm so in love with him, and I don't feel like this is real. How could someone else, someone that's in love with me, be such a wonderful person.
I never thought this would happen to me. Maybe it hasn't, and I'll wake up.
Or maybe this is the payoff from so much terribleness in my life. Maybe.
I'll just love him as much as I can for as long as I can. They say a man should love the woman more than she loves him. I don't know how to love any less. Maybe this will hurt me in the long run. The rules are stupid.
Yesterday, he said to me, when we discussed his dating Becca years ago, and if I had not given him a chance for that reason, he said that was jarring. I said I was sorry that I hurt him, and he said he was okay. I began to speak about how if this had happened or if this hadn't happened, and he told me, "I don't deal in 'what ifs.' Regardless of our misunderstandings, I still love you like hell."
And I'm happy. I love him.
I never thought this would happen to me. Maybe it hasn't, and I'll wake up.
Or maybe this is the payoff from so much terribleness in my life. Maybe.
I'll just love him as much as I can for as long as I can. They say a man should love the woman more than she loves him. I don't know how to love any less. Maybe this will hurt me in the long run. The rules are stupid.
Yesterday, he said to me, when we discussed his dating Becca years ago, and if I had not given him a chance for that reason, he said that was jarring. I said I was sorry that I hurt him, and he said he was okay. I began to speak about how if this had happened or if this hadn't happened, and he told me, "I don't deal in 'what ifs.' Regardless of our misunderstandings, I still love you like hell."
And I'm happy. I love him.