Out with Eric, In with Daniel
Hi Daniel! You're very attractive, intelligent, kind, and funny. You're gentle with me and incredibly complimentary. If you were a blanket, I'd roll around in you for awhile. I feel beautiful when I'm around you. It's so easy to kiss you, and I love the way you touch me. We've discussed sex, but you never were inappropriate about it or made me feel pressured. You asked to come upstairs, and it was the most natural thing in the world to let you, so that you could kiss me. And while you kissed me and were on top of me, you kept your feet off the futon because your shoes were still on. I told you that I liked you a lot and asked if that was okay; you said it was very okay. You told me that it's so rare to meet someone really cool like me, someone you felt so comfortable around; I felt the same way. I know I'm nuts, and I may feel differently in a day or so (especially if you don't text me or get weird somehow), and I'd never tell you this, but I could see myself eventually falling in love with you. There's something about you that fits, that's gentle and then strong. I do hope I hear from you again. If I don't, I'll feel terrible for telling you I liked you and inviting you to a bunch of events; I'll wonder why you invited me to a concert in January. Or if you're interested in just sex, that'll have me very sad, too. It'll make me feel disgusting and unworthy of affection, like the compliments you gave me were insincere.
I suppose this is why it was really good that I didn't sleep with Eric, that I let five dates pass. We were undressed with one another two nights ago, and he didn't text me for the first time yesterday (he'd texted me daily for two weeks straight before then). I'm glad I waited. Katrina told me that she heard waiting 5 dates pass before sex is standard. That makes sense to me. However, if Daniel and I go out together and don't just hang out to fool around-as in, we go on actual dates, etc.-I might go for sex more quickly. He loves early jazz...so I should take him to jazz...but that's an aside. He said that he wanted to go down on me HAHA. This was last night, and I told him, "Not tonight." He asked if that idea appealed to me at all haha. You could honestly slap me right now, and I probably wouldn't notice. I want that guy all over me. I just want to make sure he doesn't abandon me after I make that happen. I would be truly, truly devastated and cannot risk feeling that way.
I know I'm a nut job. I know that I seem to fall into infatuation so quickly. At least it's genuine. At least it's not with John anymore. I was just thinking to myself that I should try and play the field a little bit, but after seeing Daniel, I am ready to retire my OKCupid account.
Well, I guess we'll just see if he sends me a text message today. He has a job interview, so I know he's busy, but I hope he does.
I suppose this is why it was really good that I didn't sleep with Eric, that I let five dates pass. We were undressed with one another two nights ago, and he didn't text me for the first time yesterday (he'd texted me daily for two weeks straight before then). I'm glad I waited. Katrina told me that she heard waiting 5 dates pass before sex is standard. That makes sense to me. However, if Daniel and I go out together and don't just hang out to fool around-as in, we go on actual dates, etc.-I might go for sex more quickly. He loves early jazz...so I should take him to jazz...but that's an aside. He said that he wanted to go down on me HAHA. This was last night, and I told him, "Not tonight." He asked if that idea appealed to me at all haha. You could honestly slap me right now, and I probably wouldn't notice. I want that guy all over me. I just want to make sure he doesn't abandon me after I make that happen. I would be truly, truly devastated and cannot risk feeling that way.
I know I'm a nut job. I know that I seem to fall into infatuation so quickly. At least it's genuine. At least it's not with John anymore. I was just thinking to myself that I should try and play the field a little bit, but after seeing Daniel, I am ready to retire my OKCupid account.
Well, I guess we'll just see if he sends me a text message today. He has a job interview, so I know he's busy, but I hope he does.