Holy Guacamole!
It has been quite a while since I updated this silly thing. Sorry to anyone who reads.
Anyway, I am back at my apartment after living at my parents for a while. I spent the weekend with the BF at his house so that's where I was. Nothing big happened, just hung out like usual. Didn't want to go to work today, but what else is new. It snowed like 6 inches yesterday, kinda sucked. I was sitting looking out the window at BF's and thinking "oh it'll stop soon"... it was ridiculous though, just kept going.
It got so bad that the branches started falling off the trees so the folks sent BF out to try to shake some of the snow off the branches since they were hanging so low. He got a bunch of the lower ones but the trees were so tall he couldn't get the ones higher up. He was throwing dog toys, snowballs up there and getting a good deal of snow down - it was really entertaining to watch. Then his dad goes out on the deck and says he can throw the shovel at the higher branches. First toss, the shovel goes sailing over the fence. Luckily they have another one so he throws that one. Gets stuck in the tree. It was hilaaarious... they spent a good hour trying to get it down to no avail. Step mom even throws a phone book out of her bathroom window trying to get it down. Eventually a dog toy did the trick. It was a good time though.
We also went out to breakfast with the folks, bowling, then saw Reno 911 the movie and went out to dinner one night, which was lovely. All in all a good weekend. Wish it didn't have to end.
But alas, it did, and I went to work this morning. Ended up staying til past 8. Crazy. I got a lot done though, so that was good. They are also thinking about sending me away to another country for some training, which is pretty exciting. We'll see if that happens. If it does, I will be very happy... so keep your fingers crossed for me!
Ok so now onto the deep section of my update...
I have been thinking recently, and I have come to realize that I have no preference. If someone asked me why my "ideal mate" looked like, I wouldn't be able to answer. Where do I want to eat dinner? Wherever, I really don't care. I would be able to rule out things I don't like, but I really have no favorites. I feel like I am living in a gray area. Yeah I'm in school and yeah I have a great job... but what DRIVES me? I don't know. I don't have a drive. I don't have any favorite music, favorite band, favorite food, favorite color even. Is that weird? I mean I have tastes - like I don't think I look good wearing yellow for instance. But other than that, I could care less. I don't have favorites! How bland!
Not only that, but I'm also kind of floating though life. I think that's a good thing, but am I ever going to realize what I want out of life? Do I really want kids/marriage/family? Do I really want to stay in this area? What am I going to do with my degree/s? Should I just keep getting pointless degrees cause I'm bored? wtf man!?
I have narrowed at least this down: I want a companion who will live with me and be my best friend. I know that much.
Anyway, any insight into myself would be great if anyone can provide it.