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moving out. ^^ i guess... I feel like i have two children and I'm not taking good care of either, but I'm paying more attention to one of them, and it's unhealthy for the lj child to be jealous, so I have to concentrate on one fully, and let the other go.. wow, what a terrible mother I would be. love!

it's weird-- i now have a livejournal and a xanga. i sound like two different people in both. i don't really like myself in livejournal-- i wish i had deep things to say... like some peoples are life-affirming ( Read more... )

would you rather have someone love you more or you love someone else more....

good question.

hm... well i love my one-sided relationships very much. "idolatry" some people call it, but it's love all the same.

-in ten minutes i'm going to go to lunch--- then to the library where i will study my ass off for f-ing economics.

i was sitting yesterday stressing about school when i got a phone call from ren and heard that david p was in a car accident. and that he broke his neck and might be permanently paralyzed. i don't know why but i started screaming, sobbing, hysterics. actually i do know why, it's someone i grew up with, it's someone who i know was better than that ( Read more... )

i got home--- and what did i do? i watched korean dramas... so many... i love them so much. "finding neverland" was an amazing movie, i cried so much afterward, actually, now the more i think about it, i'm crying again ( Read more... )

weirdest feeling ever... i just had my palm read, this girl who lives in my friend's dorm did it as a favor, and it's so freaky ( Read more... )

I went back home this weekend... and it was so bizarre, like i'd never gone to college, and that everything was the same as it had been. very strange feeling. it's so quiet at home, and for the first time i felt kind of homesick, like i didn't want to leave. i just feel tired these days, like really tired. tired ( Read more... )

everything is going much better, i've been going out with friends, etc... mostly we walk around the city, go to shows at nyu, and then walk more.. and i met a girl who loves korean dramas (yay!!) last night we walked over 50 blocks, we made it to mid-town and then came all the way back to greenwich village. it's so peaceful in new york at night. i ( Read more... )

I'm at college... feeling pretty numb about it actually, very overwhelming in a quiet kind of way. I'm living on the 9th floor, across from the park, it's actually very beautiful. I have been feeling pretty anti-social, everybody here seems so 'new york', i've mostly been sitting in the park, wishing the library was open, or wondering how my meal ( Read more... )

i've just realized that i'm leaving for college in a week.. i started packing today, i'm really not sure what to bring... nyu has been sending me notices about my tuition payment, apparently the loans are late, etc.. and they're threatening to de-register me..??? whatever. it's just giving me a lot of stress and i was getting along so well without ( Read more... )