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i was sitting yesterday stressing about school when i got a phone call from ren and heard that david p was in a car accident. and that he broke his neck and might be permanently paralyzed. i don't know why but i started screaming, sobbing, hysterics. actually i do know why, it's someone i grew up with, it's someone who i know was better than that, someone who had practically everything and screwed it all up. why i was confused was because i haven't seen or talked to him in four years, and honestly haven't thought about him except for the occasional conversation with cds people.
why? i tried to remember all these things and remembered a lot of random things... i know that he was a lot more talented than a lot of people will ever be, including me. and that he is a good person he had a lot of quality, he was a good kid and nothing can change that. maybe i'm naive, but i don't think so, actually i know that i am not.
i'm angry. i'm angry because he was stupid. i'm angry that i didn't do any work yesterday or today because of being angry at him. mostly i stayed in bed today and thought. oh and yesterday night i basically bitched at people, random, don't ever drink and drive or i'll kill you... i got a lot of confused reactions. i'm going to go out tomorrow and try to get out of this... anger. it just put a lot of things in perspective. to be thankful for what you have, to understand and appreciate all the things that you have instead of regretting it later when it's gone.
why? i tried to remember all these things and remembered a lot of random things... i know that he was a lot more talented than a lot of people will ever be, including me. and that he is a good person he had a lot of quality, he was a good kid and nothing can change that. maybe i'm naive, but i don't think so, actually i know that i am not.
i'm angry. i'm angry because he was stupid. i'm angry that i didn't do any work yesterday or today because of being angry at him. mostly i stayed in bed today and thought. oh and yesterday night i basically bitched at people, random, don't ever drink and drive or i'll kill you... i got a lot of confused reactions. i'm going to go out tomorrow and try to get out of this... anger. it just put a lot of things in perspective. to be thankful for what you have, to understand and appreciate all the things that you have instead of regretting it later when it's gone.