fuck fuck fuck fuck
fuck
i'm so fucking tired.
would anyone out there sell their soul to get into heaven? what about for eternal youth and immortality..with a suicide clause. gotta have a way to die if you get tired of living for ever ya know.
i think that would be kewl. to live forever and stay young. of course it would be lonely and hard to watch everyone you've ever loved grow old and die while you stay eternally young. but hey, i could do that now. considering how i'm already alone and everyone i love well, yeah, i love people who don't love me. i should work on that but my mind holds no sway over my heart. which i realized the other day wasn't broken, just cracked severely because i still love amanda more then anyone else in the world. and it hurt, very very badly when we broke up, but i still love her. all i need is some answers hopefully she'll give them to me. maybe then i can sit myself down and have a deep long talk about what i'm gonna do with my emotions. i want to get over her, i do, but part of me wants to stay in love with her and keep up the hopes that i could win her back somehow.
on to other news. i helped my mom get into a place this weekend. its a cute studio cottage type thing on folsom. you know what that means children? it means in like 2 weeks, maybe 3, i'll have my own ride. and in a month after that i'll have my own apartment. well, maybe not, might do the whole roomate thing.
so yeah, thats all for now kiddies
bite me ;)
i'm so fucking tired.
would anyone out there sell their soul to get into heaven? what about for eternal youth and immortality..with a suicide clause. gotta have a way to die if you get tired of living for ever ya know.
i think that would be kewl. to live forever and stay young. of course it would be lonely and hard to watch everyone you've ever loved grow old and die while you stay eternally young. but hey, i could do that now. considering how i'm already alone and everyone i love well, yeah, i love people who don't love me. i should work on that but my mind holds no sway over my heart. which i realized the other day wasn't broken, just cracked severely because i still love amanda more then anyone else in the world. and it hurt, very very badly when we broke up, but i still love her. all i need is some answers hopefully she'll give them to me. maybe then i can sit myself down and have a deep long talk about what i'm gonna do with my emotions. i want to get over her, i do, but part of me wants to stay in love with her and keep up the hopes that i could win her back somehow.
on to other news. i helped my mom get into a place this weekend. its a cute studio cottage type thing on folsom. you know what that means children? it means in like 2 weeks, maybe 3, i'll have my own ride. and in a month after that i'll have my own apartment. well, maybe not, might do the whole roomate thing.
so yeah, thats all for now kiddies
bite me ;)