holy high hell
wow. Amanda commented!!!!! wow. makes me feel good.
god, i still love her so much. i, well, i can't explain how i feel about her. there are so many things i want to know about what happened between us. hopefully sometime i'll get those answers.
well, i've decided that the Wolf has run away. so, its back to being lonely and single again.
but thats ok. there's only 1 girl who i'll make time for in my life right now. the rest of you can kiss my ass. i just love the feeling of being rejected by all my friends at this point of time. i've hit rock bottom. and now starting to stuggle out of it.
i'll never find another girl like her. she is so perfect. the way we made love, fucked, mmmmm, god it turns me on still just thinking about it. not to mention the way i feel whenever i think about her.
i doubt that we'll get back together. but i won't let hope die just yet. everything is starting to move into the right direction and maybe, just maybe, she'll take me back when my life i straight.
2 months people. i should have my own place in 2 months. you know what. that scares the shit out of me. once i get my own place. i'll truly be alone. no one but me to watch me rise and fall. no one but me at home, the comforts of an empty home are not pleasant.
god. i just wish i never went to alaska. maybe things would have turned out a hell of a lot better. maybe i'd still be with amanda, have my own place, my own ride, my own life. but as long as i'm wishing, why don't i wish everything was perfect.
i tasted the first part of my life dream. then lost it. now i'm left to try and make the rest of it come into place, alone.
thats my biggest emotional problem. i can't stand being alone. i hate it. i can't wait until i get married and start a family. my life dream....have a good job, own my house, have a beautiful wife and at least 2 kids. the american dream right.
but i'm sure your tired of hearing about all this sappy love shit that i talk about most of the time. but hey, its better then talking about suicide. and yes people, its still in the back of my mind and always will be until the day that i have no reason to want the cold comfort of the grave.
so yeah. love me, hate me, i don't care anymore. i'm alone now like i usually am. i don't see my life becoming filled with friends anytime soon.
so to those of you who care. why bother?
god, i still love her so much. i, well, i can't explain how i feel about her. there are so many things i want to know about what happened between us. hopefully sometime i'll get those answers.
well, i've decided that the Wolf has run away. so, its back to being lonely and single again.
but thats ok. there's only 1 girl who i'll make time for in my life right now. the rest of you can kiss my ass. i just love the feeling of being rejected by all my friends at this point of time. i've hit rock bottom. and now starting to stuggle out of it.
i'll never find another girl like her. she is so perfect. the way we made love, fucked, mmmmm, god it turns me on still just thinking about it. not to mention the way i feel whenever i think about her.
i doubt that we'll get back together. but i won't let hope die just yet. everything is starting to move into the right direction and maybe, just maybe, she'll take me back when my life i straight.
2 months people. i should have my own place in 2 months. you know what. that scares the shit out of me. once i get my own place. i'll truly be alone. no one but me to watch me rise and fall. no one but me at home, the comforts of an empty home are not pleasant.
god. i just wish i never went to alaska. maybe things would have turned out a hell of a lot better. maybe i'd still be with amanda, have my own place, my own ride, my own life. but as long as i'm wishing, why don't i wish everything was perfect.
i tasted the first part of my life dream. then lost it. now i'm left to try and make the rest of it come into place, alone.
thats my biggest emotional problem. i can't stand being alone. i hate it. i can't wait until i get married and start a family. my life dream....have a good job, own my house, have a beautiful wife and at least 2 kids. the american dream right.
but i'm sure your tired of hearing about all this sappy love shit that i talk about most of the time. but hey, its better then talking about suicide. and yes people, its still in the back of my mind and always will be until the day that i have no reason to want the cold comfort of the grave.
so yeah. love me, hate me, i don't care anymore. i'm alone now like i usually am. i don't see my life becoming filled with friends anytime soon.
so to those of you who care. why bother?