A realization about the nature of my work
I think part of what is so frustrating about my work is that I mostly feel like I'm doing bullshit stuff like running checks. Sure, check calculations are critical, but I never get to do something more interesting like design to break up the monotony. I can't see the benefits of my own work because the design stays pretty much the same regardless of what I do. I definitely felt more inspired to be productive when I felt accountable for the completion of a project component.
That said, it's not like my manager could do much about it. I'm only going to be here another four months (whoo!), so getting me more involved with a project's design is not an option.
That said, I did have a moment where I was proud to be an engineer... I was reading the ASCE news bulletin and it was talking about the role of a civil engineer in the world, responses from engineers about fighting global warming, and saw this cool textbook on low-impact development practices. So maybe I'm in the right area, just not the right job.
That said, it's not like my manager could do much about it. I'm only going to be here another four months (whoo!), so getting me more involved with a project's design is not an option.
That said, I did have a moment where I was proud to be an engineer... I was reading the ASCE news bulletin and it was talking about the role of a civil engineer in the world, responses from engineers about fighting global warming, and saw this cool textbook on low-impact development practices. So maybe I'm in the right area, just not the right job.