T.G.I.F.
Thank God this week is over!! My bosses went out of town for the week and I have been pretty much responsible for making sure everyone is kept busy working, staying until everyone has gone for the day,then locking up. For anyone who doesn't know my working situation, where I work is also where the owners live. So basically, I am responsible for their home as well as their business! Their son lives in town too, but he passes the buck to me! I don't mind, but have been working extra hours. On top of all the other crap going on in my mind and with my emotions - I'm a wreck! (what else is new?)
I haven't heard from Emmet all week. I know he has been checking his email, cuz I can tell thru billing/session activity. The thing is, I wrote him a couple of emails that were pretty strong - but then chickened out and un-sent them. However, I don't know if this un-sending on aol actually works! If it doesn't and he received the one email that I think he did, then I am not surprised that I haven't heard from him! But, as time goes on, it is getting somewhat easier. I still miss him like crazy, but I am feeling stronger everyday. I have to concentrate on not how much I miss him, but the unhealthiness (is that a word???) of our relationship. It has been no bed of roses from the start!
I think this is the time for me to take for me. Figure out what's best for me, instead of worrying about making someone else happy. Is that wrong? I feel as if that is selfish.
I have to go and find out where my dinner is (delivery is late!!)
I haven't heard from Emmet all week. I know he has been checking his email, cuz I can tell thru billing/session activity. The thing is, I wrote him a couple of emails that were pretty strong - but then chickened out and un-sent them. However, I don't know if this un-sending on aol actually works! If it doesn't and he received the one email that I think he did, then I am not surprised that I haven't heard from him! But, as time goes on, it is getting somewhat easier. I still miss him like crazy, but I am feeling stronger everyday. I have to concentrate on not how much I miss him, but the unhealthiness (is that a word???) of our relationship. It has been no bed of roses from the start!
I think this is the time for me to take for me. Figure out what's best for me, instead of worrying about making someone else happy. Is that wrong? I feel as if that is selfish.
I have to go and find out where my dinner is (delivery is late!!)