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It has been awhile since I last wrote, basically because I have no life!
But since my last entry, I have started the Atkin Diet - oh, no, let me correct myself - the Atkins Nutrtional something or other! Amber has been on this "program" for awhile now, and I could see the weight she has lost, so I figured, what do I have to lose (other than weight!)? I did have to psyche myself out beforehand too!
Last Monday I had planned on starting this diet, and that morning, Emmet showed up here at the house! It totally took me by surprise and shook me mentally and emotionally. We had a few words, but he stayed about an hour. He said he came by cuz he missed me and wanted to see me. But he also said that since he has been away, he has had alot less stress. I said I did too. I still love him very very much and seeing him was difficult. I told him that I knew he was checking his email at all hours and not to try and hide it or lie about it! Since then, we have been in touch regularly.
I told him last night, the first time we have been online at the same time and were "chatting" with each other - that we had come full-circle. We started out by chatting online over 4 years ago.
He said that once he is working, he would like for us to go out for a meal. And that he thinks that our problem is that as soon as we met, we started living together - we never had a chance to date, or whatever! I told him, it's a bit late now to go back to holding hands! I guess the bottom line is, neither one of us wants to totally let go.
But he has been gone for a little over a month now. Amber and I have been spending alot of quality time together and its been great! Not only is she my daughter, but she is my friend. I am soo blessed!
Work has been busy and I have been cranky! I feel I need an extra day off! For real....I just have to convince my boss!!
My son Jason is considering moving back here to Florida. I would love for him to be here and have all 3 of my children in the same state with me!! It's been years since that has happened! Bobby is like an hour or so away and it would be soo great to have them all near me. But my main concern is Jason's happiness and I know that he's happiest when he is with Don. I love seeing them together, because they are always happy to be together! It really warms my heart and I love Don like he is my own. He is part of our family! So, I know that Jason being here would just be hard on both of them.
Bobby is doing fine. I don't get to talk to him often enough or see him often enough. But he seems to be okay. He and Brandy bought a used washer and dryer and are thrilled to have it in their apt! If anyone knows Bobby, they know he is fanatical about his clothes! He changes clothes often! When he was living with me, when I did laundry, most of the clothes being washed were his! It's good that he likes to be clean, but he has ALOT of clothes!! Last time we went to Ft Myers to see him, his apartment was looking real cute! He even had fresh flowers! He says he likes to have them in his place. (he gets that from me!I love flowers!!) He is doing really well for himself and I am soo proud of him!
Well, I guess I have rattled on way too long...
Take care all!
But since my last entry, I have started the Atkin Diet - oh, no, let me correct myself - the Atkins Nutrtional something or other! Amber has been on this "program" for awhile now, and I could see the weight she has lost, so I figured, what do I have to lose (other than weight!)? I did have to psyche myself out beforehand too!
Last Monday I had planned on starting this diet, and that morning, Emmet showed up here at the house! It totally took me by surprise and shook me mentally and emotionally. We had a few words, but he stayed about an hour. He said he came by cuz he missed me and wanted to see me. But he also said that since he has been away, he has had alot less stress. I said I did too. I still love him very very much and seeing him was difficult. I told him that I knew he was checking his email at all hours and not to try and hide it or lie about it! Since then, we have been in touch regularly.
I told him last night, the first time we have been online at the same time and were "chatting" with each other - that we had come full-circle. We started out by chatting online over 4 years ago.
He said that once he is working, he would like for us to go out for a meal. And that he thinks that our problem is that as soon as we met, we started living together - we never had a chance to date, or whatever! I told him, it's a bit late now to go back to holding hands! I guess the bottom line is, neither one of us wants to totally let go.
But he has been gone for a little over a month now. Amber and I have been spending alot of quality time together and its been great! Not only is she my daughter, but she is my friend. I am soo blessed!
Work has been busy and I have been cranky! I feel I need an extra day off! For real....I just have to convince my boss!!
My son Jason is considering moving back here to Florida. I would love for him to be here and have all 3 of my children in the same state with me!! It's been years since that has happened! Bobby is like an hour or so away and it would be soo great to have them all near me. But my main concern is Jason's happiness and I know that he's happiest when he is with Don. I love seeing them together, because they are always happy to be together! It really warms my heart and I love Don like he is my own. He is part of our family! So, I know that Jason being here would just be hard on both of them.
Bobby is doing fine. I don't get to talk to him often enough or see him often enough. But he seems to be okay. He and Brandy bought a used washer and dryer and are thrilled to have it in their apt! If anyone knows Bobby, they know he is fanatical about his clothes! He changes clothes often! When he was living with me, when I did laundry, most of the clothes being washed were his! It's good that he likes to be clean, but he has ALOT of clothes!! Last time we went to Ft Myers to see him, his apartment was looking real cute! He even had fresh flowers! He says he likes to have them in his place. (he gets that from me!I love flowers!!) He is doing really well for himself and I am soo proud of him!
Well, I guess I have rattled on way too long...
Take care all!