I am such a hack. I can’t even write a proper statement of purpose. It sounds banal and contrived. They shouldn’t let me into the program based solely on my inability to put together a cogent thought. There is a red mark in the middle of my forehead from where I continued to bang my head against my desk.

Luckily, I’ve enlisted the services of ( Read more... )

There’s a girl on the front cover of my test preparation book, a cute redhead with ocean blue eyes and perfect teeth, smiling confidently from the glossy cover. She seems to be saying, “Hey, this thing is easy. Why did I ever worry myself over it?” I appreciate her vigor. She makes me feel as though I could succeed, with enough hard work.

She’s ( Read more... )

It’s time to wake up.
Time to turn on the lights and
Take a good look at
Yourself in the mirror.
Can you stand the sight?
Time to kill your soul.
It’s not worth much anyway.
Besides, everyone’s doing it.
All of the cool kids.

Do you understand now?
Can you comprehend it?
Probably not.
The time’s not right.
Not yet.
You bring in the pain and suffering
That ruin ( Read more... )

For the second time in two weeks I had a day where I taught no classes. I just sat in the teacher’s room for almost nine straight hours, with a break in the monotony at lunch time. The reason? Testing. School-wide testing. No classes were taught, the students just had test after test. I feel kind of bad for them, having so many tests piled up on ( Read more... )

I’m a little depressed because I can’t see one of my favorite bands perform this summer. Linkin Park will be performing at the Summer Sonic festival in August, which is in Chiba City (about two hours by train from where I live). Other bands I like will be performing, too. However, the tickets are really expensive. The festival lasts for three days ( Read more... )