Funny in the Frightening Way
i don't lack perspective.
i've got my own and it is very full.
i forget how badly the things i don't challenge can go if i'm not careful with myself.
i forget how good challenging things can be in trying to get away from myself.
Little things grow so disproportionately. i need to discover a way to stop trying to take apart everything. i break down the beauty in everything. Time to live to love but let people be and work on me. i need to release my need to please people and my conception of perfection. Individuals can do it and my interest comes across as patronizing because it's atypical and i'm ultimately trying to save myself through other's examples.
Can i just do that? Live for today and live for myself? Maybe.
i need to meet more people that have made that happen, but where and how? i need some detail and determination.
Just because behavior feels right does not mean it will redeem itself over time.
Comfortable doesn't mean functional for everyone.
i always assume i'll be able to pick things down to their potentials, but we are people and part of a bigger puzzle.
Life is dynamic matter and anyway you look at it, it involves motion.
Who knows what might strike someone's fancy? Who's arrogant enough to assume it will always be them? We all are some days. Some perfect days.
We just justify our "skipping to the chase" by our own troubling desires.
We've all wanted something to the point that the craving becomes a need rather than a want. Most things are wants, you just have to hold out until you can get to navigate the need part.
We all want supplements sometimes, not complements because compliments require you to continuously work to deserve them.
Complementary people, compatible people are always content being conjoined despite the dynamics of life. They keep each other afloat as needed but don't overwhelm a person's entirety.
A supplement just snuggles you into a state of having something. You don't have an answer or a plan with a supplement, you just have a supplement. Supplementary subjects become objects and are objected to easily. i make myself a supplement without intention and that is worth mentioning because it needs to change.
A supplement is temporary, but ultimately you're in the same state after the fact without having gained anything.
Yes, it's nice to be secure and set, but to be set can also mean being stuck.
i can complement and suppliment. My complements have conditioned me enormously, my supplements i have confused me mostly.
i want to keep many complementary characters in my life. i hope i don't screw that up. i just need to remember to listen twice as much as i talk.
i've got lots of little loves of my life and i think that mostly equals big love. There are just some missing pieces.
Like constant committed counterpart. Than again, i've got some committed kids in my life. i can't complain. i just need to collect myself and try again. i can't make things that are immature. They have to develop themselves and they may never. i'm not in a position to predict anything but my uses of my next paycheck. i need a counterpart to keep me in check? i should probably just check myself (before i wreck myself). No one else can yet. Or those that can are currently busy.
Problems are perpetual things. Little solutions are all we have, we should learn to savor them and try to see things long term.
These are supposed to be the best years of my life and if Marcel Proust places labels appropriately, they are.
i am in constant motion and drops of determination mean the most to me.
Designation is delicious and i need some of my own. Nothing too established, but nothing too ephemeral. We want a reality we can swear to handle, but where's anyone's guarantee?
i'll make music and art and avoid state-of-the-art and seek the state of people's hearts.
i'd rather live and die than live lies that i tell myself.
i am going to devote myself to writing detailed summaries of what i've done each day.
i am not my resume, but i have one. i CAN do this. i CAN make a difference and i AM going to. i will set an example people will be able to follow and will be happy to follow. i will document every minute detail of this business beginning and i will make pleasant through the ending.
If i can make peace with myself, others will too. i can quiet my self-consciousness and be a part of what i believe in. Other's oppression and incidents of oppression are no reason for me to live that life. i'm not responsible for wrong doings of others, but i can still help the right things get into place if i can get right.
After long bouts with doubt, i believe in love and i believe in meaning in nature and art.
i believe i need to read more Helen Keller and i believe i need to trust myself much more than i do or would like to.
i'm going to do just fine if i can do what i must.
i've made it this far ... just a little further ...
i've got my own and it is very full.
i forget how badly the things i don't challenge can go if i'm not careful with myself.
i forget how good challenging things can be in trying to get away from myself.
Little things grow so disproportionately. i need to discover a way to stop trying to take apart everything. i break down the beauty in everything. Time to live to love but let people be and work on me. i need to release my need to please people and my conception of perfection. Individuals can do it and my interest comes across as patronizing because it's atypical and i'm ultimately trying to save myself through other's examples.
Can i just do that? Live for today and live for myself? Maybe.
i need to meet more people that have made that happen, but where and how? i need some detail and determination.
Just because behavior feels right does not mean it will redeem itself over time.
Comfortable doesn't mean functional for everyone.
i always assume i'll be able to pick things down to their potentials, but we are people and part of a bigger puzzle.
Life is dynamic matter and anyway you look at it, it involves motion.
Who knows what might strike someone's fancy? Who's arrogant enough to assume it will always be them? We all are some days. Some perfect days.
We just justify our "skipping to the chase" by our own troubling desires.
We've all wanted something to the point that the craving becomes a need rather than a want. Most things are wants, you just have to hold out until you can get to navigate the need part.
We all want supplements sometimes, not complements because compliments require you to continuously work to deserve them.
Complementary people, compatible people are always content being conjoined despite the dynamics of life. They keep each other afloat as needed but don't overwhelm a person's entirety.
A supplement just snuggles you into a state of having something. You don't have an answer or a plan with a supplement, you just have a supplement. Supplementary subjects become objects and are objected to easily. i make myself a supplement without intention and that is worth mentioning because it needs to change.
A supplement is temporary, but ultimately you're in the same state after the fact without having gained anything.
Yes, it's nice to be secure and set, but to be set can also mean being stuck.
i can complement and suppliment. My complements have conditioned me enormously, my supplements i have confused me mostly.
i want to keep many complementary characters in my life. i hope i don't screw that up. i just need to remember to listen twice as much as i talk.
i've got lots of little loves of my life and i think that mostly equals big love. There are just some missing pieces.
Like constant committed counterpart. Than again, i've got some committed kids in my life. i can't complain. i just need to collect myself and try again. i can't make things that are immature. They have to develop themselves and they may never. i'm not in a position to predict anything but my uses of my next paycheck. i need a counterpart to keep me in check? i should probably just check myself (before i wreck myself). No one else can yet. Or those that can are currently busy.
Problems are perpetual things. Little solutions are all we have, we should learn to savor them and try to see things long term.
These are supposed to be the best years of my life and if Marcel Proust places labels appropriately, they are.
i am in constant motion and drops of determination mean the most to me.
Designation is delicious and i need some of my own. Nothing too established, but nothing too ephemeral. We want a reality we can swear to handle, but where's anyone's guarantee?
i'll make music and art and avoid state-of-the-art and seek the state of people's hearts.
i'd rather live and die than live lies that i tell myself.
i am going to devote myself to writing detailed summaries of what i've done each day.
i am not my resume, but i have one. i CAN do this. i CAN make a difference and i AM going to. i will set an example people will be able to follow and will be happy to follow. i will document every minute detail of this business beginning and i will make pleasant through the ending.
If i can make peace with myself, others will too. i can quiet my self-consciousness and be a part of what i believe in. Other's oppression and incidents of oppression are no reason for me to live that life. i'm not responsible for wrong doings of others, but i can still help the right things get into place if i can get right.
After long bouts with doubt, i believe in love and i believe in meaning in nature and art.
i believe i need to read more Helen Keller and i believe i need to trust myself much more than i do or would like to.
i'm going to do just fine if i can do what i must.
i've made it this far ... just a little further ...