not the happiest of my messages

[amyrick]

everything and nothing is happening at the same time right now... i'm so confused but yet i know exactly what i want.. but what i get is no where close to me... some ppl think i might have the perfect life or something close to it but no no far from that... i know u probally get sick of hearing my problems but at this time livejournal is the only one who will listen... and hopefully u will understand and be there for me like the true friend u should be and hopefully are... i need u now more than ever before.. the way i'm making this sound makes it seem even worse... but to me it is very bad and hopefully it will only last a day or so more... considering it's been this way for almost 6 years... i am lonely and i am tired... i hate the way i get played like some christmas gift u get and then 2 weeks later put it away for cause ur sick of it... i am not some simple toy and i will never be content as being such a thing... i have been played to many times and yet i thought i had been for the last time and things would be different now... i thought u cared for me or atleast were my friend but no... u said sweet things to me and made me lose most of my senses and then put me away for the next time ur lonely and decide to return to the past... but sorry to say but i no longer will be there when u return to use me again...

well amy sad time just got much better... no longer need to right sad stuff... cause yeah count on the 7th floor guys to make it all better... seriously where do they get these ideas... let's make our floor be underwater... haha stupid stupid boys... it's kinda funny seeing 50 guys get bitched at by chrissy the resident director.. another thing.... the water went down to the 6th floor.... damn boys.. well i'm outie... byebye