god a lot has happened lately
as i can remember... it's been a very long time since i have updated and since i'm not doing anything for awhile i figured i better do it now and plus it's gonna be a long entry...well let's see where was i in my last entry... oh yes i remember i was talking about how confused i was... i was quite depressed to cause no one wanted me and i didn't know what to do and all i wanted was for someone to tell me the truth and not just be nice to me... and then i got happier when i heard about the stupid guys flooding their floor... so this is where i will start... it will start on the 14th... i realized that there was a really hott foreign guy in my calc class that liked to flirt with me and i decided that in class wednesday i will attempt to flirt back with him and see what he's doing over the weekend... of course this never happened...but he's still a nice guy and i still talk to him and i'm ok with it not happening... but i can't tell u that part yet... ok well on saturday the 15th i saw josh aka best friend and i attempted to flirt with him but he's such a great friend so it would be weird if anything ever happened... so anyways i hung out with him for a little on sunday the 16th but nothing ever happened and i was like maybe another time... well now it's time to jump up to tuesday the 18th... we had no school monday the 17th... i was at my college republicans meeting and when i was leaving this kid that i know from the club that also lives in mac was standing there and i was like bye joe and left next thing i know he's walking next to me and like we are talking the whole way up to mac and he's like what are u doing tonight and i was like freezing my ass off and he's like if u have time later you should come watch a movie and well i did... and he was flirting with me and i was still unsure if he was just being nice or if in fact he was actually flirting with me... well i layed down on his bed and he put his arm around me...then he kissed my cheek and we made out...and he's like u should come up tomm... so i did this is the 19th... and we were really flirting and totally getting into everything... and he's like what time u done classes tomm and he's like well i'll be done around 3:45 and he's like u want me to come down then and i was like yeah... so then he came down and we hung out for alittle well then patty went into one of her bitchy moments from then until sunday... because i was leaving her out and whatever she does it to me all the time and the only reason why we're in his room most of the time is because he's got ps2 and i'm addicted to kill zone... and also i really don't think patty wants us doing stuff in his bed...well anyways we hang out thursday and when we went upstairs we almost had sex, but we didn'twe talked about things and he respected that i was a virgin... i mean am... and i wasn't ready to have sex yet and he's like are u waiting til marriage or what... and i'm like no.. just to the end of this weekend at least haha.. amanda stop smerking just cause u know what happens doesn't mean u can be smerking!! well anyways i decided to sleep downstairs and before i left he's like u wanna be my gf and i was like yeah... ooo guess what joe is here... so i'll get back to you all in a lil bit... ok i'm back he surprised me with chocolates... how sweet...aww i love him... he could only spend 5 minutes with me... but still it was so great.. i'm headed up there at 9... i don't get to see him until then... amy sad for moment.. ok anyways where was i.. oo yes i slept downstairs... in my room thursday...here comes friday... i was walking to my sociology class.. at this time i was unsure how much of gf bf we were... were we completely bf gf or is it more fling bf gf... well anyways i was walking to class and i saw him and he ran up to me... picked me up and kissed me... it was so sweet and romantic cause it was right by the fountain in the middle of campus and it was snowing and awwwww that's all i can say... he's like i missed you today! so then i come back to my room and there is a note on my door saying... come up to my room when u get a chance... and then he asked me if i wanted to go out drinking with him and some friends and i was like i can't have much because of my meeting on saturday...and i went with him ... had a lot of fun then i ran into this dude i know... he's a friend of jeff's and it just so happened to be his house and jeff just so happened to be there and saw me and joe there together.. ok break off from the joe and amy story to a more disturbing subject.. for all of u who thought jeff was an ok guy even after the whole wanting to be friends here is the time where u would love to kill him... this situation could have hurt me really bad if it wasn't for the fact that me and joe are together and happy.. well ever since friday night jeff has been harassing me... telling me i'm a ho and that he never liked me and that he hopes me and joe have sex and i get sick and die and all this other crap and that i was never anything to him and he hates me and all this fucking crap that i just ignored and like he's always like are u and joe serious... did u suck his cock... and all this crap and i hate him and i decided the best thing to do is just ignore what he says to me.. cause he doesn't matter even enough to hate him... that's how low he is.... well anyways back to being happy... i got just a lil buzz on friday and i stayed up with joe and it was nice cause patty wasn't talking to me and also she had a friend over... well then on saturday i went to my ra meeting... i find out whether i got ra or not tomm... i can't wait... i hope i got it... well anyways i was gone from 10-4... and then i went up and spent time with joe like normal... and he and his friends were like we're getting u piss ass drunk tonight... and beleive me i was... i'm in college so i can as long as i'm careful... it was so snowy out and they gave me like straight vodka all night and i was very gone and joe's like it'll be ok cause i'll just stay up in his room and he'll take care of me...when i got back we went up to his room but his roomie and his girl were there and i can't just go there and sleep.. i'm a very noisy sleeper and i move around a lot so i was like ok i'll just sleep downstairs and he's like i'll come down with u for awhile and make sure ur ok... omg he made sure i went pee... cause u lose half the alcohol when u pee...then he tucked me in and made sure i got something to drink and had some bread so i wouldn't be sick in the morning... and put 2 advil next to a bottle of water on my dresser so i could take them first thing in the morning.. and turned off the light and told me to sleep... well i did what he told me... i slept for 5 minutes... then i got online... the worst thing to let amy do when she is drunk... i can not type... i can not do anything... i had some good convos tho so then i went to bed... i woke up in the middle of the night on the floor... got back up and then when i woke at noon i had cheerios and 2 juice boxes next to me in bed and i have no idea how they got there... well then i went to see joe and we watched the eagles game and then we were fooling around... and that's where the story pretty much ends... byebye