wow... that's all i can say
sorry that i haven't updated lately.. i've been really busy!! i just had to update today tho... i had to tell u all about last night!! i know some of you don't want to hear about it and in that case u can just stop reading now! i don't care anymore.. i understand ur just looking out for me but it hurts to know that some of my friends don't support me enough to make my own decisons but i can and will make them! to those of u that either completely support me or are worried for me but understand it's my own decision.. u truly are a good friend!! cause i am so happy right now and i never want this feeling to leave me!
Kyle's been asking to come visit me for over a week now.. i just kept saying no! for some dumb reason i thought that by not seeing him that i might save myself from getting hurt when really it hurts both me and him by doing so!! well yesterday he asked and at first i said no but then patty (my roomie) yelled at me! i said if he wanted to he could come up but he didn't have to cause it's 2 1/2 hrs and it was pouring down raining!! he was like see u in 2 1/2 hrs... and i was like omg i need to get a shower and clean my room and patty's like oo great i have to clean my room too... this was at 7 pm and i got all ready and sat and watched tv for a little... i was so happy that i got to see him... at first it was kinda weird having him there and i was trying to be innocent amy!! haha and well i kinda forgot that he doesn't do the first move... damn him!! and also he doesn't test my boundaries!! damn guy haha i like when a guy will see how much he can get away with until i yell at him!! haha but then after that it was amazing and yes i am still a virgin.. i know that's what u were thinking...haha!! well we watched the movie the replacers it was on tbs and we watched family guy and he just held me the whole time..it was so great then at like 1 we decided to go to sleep well i couldn't sleep cause i knew the faster i fell asleep the faster the morning would come and i didn't want the morning to ever come!! so i just laid there in his arms staring at him and drawing on his tummy and yes i was rubbing his nipples.. u know me haha! and it was amazing i was so comfortable well at like 2:45 we woke up and watched mtv after hours!! he was still holding me and we had our 4th-7th kiss hehe it was great... i never wanted him to have to leave well patty came in like 3 and while kyle was laying on the bed patty was asking me over and over again through aim if me and kyle are going out and i'm like no cause well he hasn't asked me out for one although it's kinda understood and also i can't deal with a long distance relationship... it's hard enough being away from u guys(and girls) let alone being away from a boyfriend!! well let me continue the night we went back to bed like 4 and once again he sat there holding me.. it was great but i was warm so i took off my hoodie then layed back down and well i was laying seperate from him at that time and well he did the sweetest thing... i wasn't quite asleep and well he wrapped him arm around my waist and pulled me closer to him and then he was kissing my shoulders... i was like in awe it was amazing and then later on he was fast asleep and i had to pee so i went down the hall and i ran in to pinto (nicole from 2 doors down)and she was like did u just get laid and i was like nah but kyle is here and she was like aww amy i'm so happy... he really does like u... i was like yeah i'm dreading the morning when he has to leave... well i went back to the room and he's like i was wondering where u got to... well then we went back to bed and i actually fell asleep this time and then the dreaded thing happened my alarm went off at 8 cause i had to make food for nutrition class today.. so i got up for like 2 minutes and was like screw this and laid back down well then at 8:45 he's like i really have to go so i got up put my hoodie and slippers on and walked him to his car and we had a little make out session and then he had to go.. so i said bye and then turned away and started crying... i didn't want him to go and also i was so happy!! i continued crying for about 10 minutes then i got over it for a little while.. i made my food and went to class and lunch and then came back like 12:30! well as soon as i got back i layed on my bed and well it was great cause my pillow smells like him so then i spent the past 4 hrs smelling my pillow... i'm pathetic i know but that's what happens when u fall for someone so badly!! and my hoodie and my tank they all smell like him... so now i'm sitting here waiting for him to get home so i can talk to him.. plz let him call or come online... ok i have officially gone nuts... i'm listening to jeff foxworthy's 12 days of christmas and there was a phone that rang in the middle of it and i got all happy and got butterflies in my tummy but it wasn't my phone!! damn thing.. well i'm off to get a shower...get some food and then most likely head out... ttyl
Kyle's been asking to come visit me for over a week now.. i just kept saying no! for some dumb reason i thought that by not seeing him that i might save myself from getting hurt when really it hurts both me and him by doing so!! well yesterday he asked and at first i said no but then patty (my roomie) yelled at me! i said if he wanted to he could come up but he didn't have to cause it's 2 1/2 hrs and it was pouring down raining!! he was like see u in 2 1/2 hrs... and i was like omg i need to get a shower and clean my room and patty's like oo great i have to clean my room too... this was at 7 pm and i got all ready and sat and watched tv for a little... i was so happy that i got to see him... at first it was kinda weird having him there and i was trying to be innocent amy!! haha and well i kinda forgot that he doesn't do the first move... damn him!! and also he doesn't test my boundaries!! damn guy haha i like when a guy will see how much he can get away with until i yell at him!! haha but then after that it was amazing and yes i am still a virgin.. i know that's what u were thinking...haha!! well we watched the movie the replacers it was on tbs and we watched family guy and he just held me the whole time..it was so great then at like 1 we decided to go to sleep well i couldn't sleep cause i knew the faster i fell asleep the faster the morning would come and i didn't want the morning to ever come!! so i just laid there in his arms staring at him and drawing on his tummy and yes i was rubbing his nipples.. u know me haha! and it was amazing i was so comfortable well at like 2:45 we woke up and watched mtv after hours!! he was still holding me and we had our 4th-7th kiss hehe it was great... i never wanted him to have to leave well patty came in like 3 and while kyle was laying on the bed patty was asking me over and over again through aim if me and kyle are going out and i'm like no cause well he hasn't asked me out for one although it's kinda understood and also i can't deal with a long distance relationship... it's hard enough being away from u guys(and girls) let alone being away from a boyfriend!! well let me continue the night we went back to bed like 4 and once again he sat there holding me.. it was great but i was warm so i took off my hoodie then layed back down and well i was laying seperate from him at that time and well he did the sweetest thing... i wasn't quite asleep and well he wrapped him arm around my waist and pulled me closer to him and then he was kissing my shoulders... i was like in awe it was amazing and then later on he was fast asleep and i had to pee so i went down the hall and i ran in to pinto (nicole from 2 doors down)and she was like did u just get laid and i was like nah but kyle is here and she was like aww amy i'm so happy... he really does like u... i was like yeah i'm dreading the morning when he has to leave... well i went back to the room and he's like i was wondering where u got to... well then we went back to bed and i actually fell asleep this time and then the dreaded thing happened my alarm went off at 8 cause i had to make food for nutrition class today.. so i got up for like 2 minutes and was like screw this and laid back down well then at 8:45 he's like i really have to go so i got up put my hoodie and slippers on and walked him to his car and we had a little make out session and then he had to go.. so i said bye and then turned away and started crying... i didn't want him to go and also i was so happy!! i continued crying for about 10 minutes then i got over it for a little while.. i made my food and went to class and lunch and then came back like 12:30! well as soon as i got back i layed on my bed and well it was great cause my pillow smells like him so then i spent the past 4 hrs smelling my pillow... i'm pathetic i know but that's what happens when u fall for someone so badly!! and my hoodie and my tank they all smell like him... so now i'm sitting here waiting for him to get home so i can talk to him.. plz let him call or come online... ok i have officially gone nuts... i'm listening to jeff foxworthy's 12 days of christmas and there was a phone that rang in the middle of it and i got all happy and got butterflies in my tummy but it wasn't my phone!! damn thing.. well i'm off to get a shower...get some food and then most likely head out... ttyl