HIGH low
Hello my dear self... its time we talked. You can put all your fear in the Lord but still have fear for its around every corner. A parent's hurtful comment can lead to feelings of unworthy yet I know its this weakness where God's strength is found. I just wish I could explain to others and have them happy for me at the point in my life I am in. I like the idea of running a summer camp. I like the idea of having charge of something scary and new with kids whom I will have no idea of and yes, I will battle fear right till I walk in and meet them but I look forward to growing and relinquishing this part of me which I have carried like a terrified bunny (in honor of Easter) for the last six month. I want to be more then my fear. I want to know I can do this and perhaps its just a summer camp and yes, I should look ahead (that I am doing!). But this is where I want to be right now and just because I am at this point does not mean that you disown me or rub in how disappointed you are in me. I am doing the best I can. I can only pray that I can succeed with all the love and joy teaching brings me this summer. Says the Lord, Let Love be your Only Debt. That is how I want to live. I want to give till empty to the kids this summer and hope they have a ball! *Cross Fingers*