ruff hands, sage magick and heading homeward for the first time in 5 years...
as per my life and my raucus arian nature...
so much has changed and progressed since we have last spoken. its almost spring and the tulips are coming up--which in the construction industry indicates that times are busy. i'm doing two jobs simultaneously and am finding myself tired and missing girls all the time--all different kinds. one job is my union job the other is community health clinic i'm building walls and partitions for as a work trade. zari was gonna help me by working hard and independantly while i taught two of the practitioners involved how to be carpenters but shes on her trip to india for a month and that makes me short one funny person i can text message good morning to at 530am and promptly get a mixed sort of response from and a good worker who i can depend on, fuck! instead i have a massage therapist and a yoga instructor, fuck! one is kinda lazy and whiney, the other is hard working and i'm going to make my prodigy. the lesson in this is the value of learning how to teach yr trade in or to better understand my work and also learn patience and solidify in my own mind that i am able to do this work on my own. i am a carpenter now, my hands are starting to look slightly beat up all the time and strong again and my fingertips are hard with caluses.
wishing i had more people in my life to talk to about magic...
ive been researching aleister crowley in a kind of weird way. who the fuck is that? and is that the guy from the ozzy song? yes and he's known as one of the western worlds most prolific public magicians, has written a bazillion books, was a crazy sexist, rumored to be into dark magic and had made up all these words. he had a lot of interests and one that particularly facsinates me is his work with sex magic.
what is sex magic you ask? well i'd love to tell you about it...
after talking to my dear friend, fellow initiate and mary flaming queen free about mr crowley at length ive come to some understanding about the matter even tho i still play with ideas in my mind... basically there is a hightened power in the sex act that comes to culmination in orgasm, hmm, i really like this wordy description i read in wikipedia better then my own description here...
The fundamental premise of sex magic is the concept that the sexual energy, or libido, of the human organism is the most potent force it contains, and harnessing the unique states that arise through sexual activity provides a special experiential conduit for the transcendence of nominal reality.
get it? like tantra and shit. alot of different culture use sex magic or sex in religious practice or mythology. obviously not everyone does it like aleister crowley, once deemed the worlds wickedest man. next time remember to make a wish.
in other news i'm going to thailand...
yup its true, thailand, the motherland march 27 to april 12. which puts me in a asian city or a beach paradise on my 27th birthday. i might be getting old but the idea of my birthday is really starting to depress me lately and i feel like a giant disapointment is waiting to blow up in my face. like i expect something shitty to happen prior to put a sour puss on everything. not very possi. so i decided that if i was in thailand on my birthday, at least i can have the memory of being in thailand for my birthday and hopefully itll make me feel better about life. plus, i really need a fucking a vacation, like a real one. ive been working pretty steady since last spring and i'm totally over it. plus my cousin jan is getting married and my brother and dad are going with me too--the boys. also zoeann will be there as she is there right now having the time of her fucking life without me, not for long tho! i'll be taking my first non-stop flight to thailand, which is insane and around 20 hours of plane ride. i'm totally gonna get a tattoo there.
so much has changed and progressed since we have last spoken. its almost spring and the tulips are coming up--which in the construction industry indicates that times are busy. i'm doing two jobs simultaneously and am finding myself tired and missing girls all the time--all different kinds. one job is my union job the other is community health clinic i'm building walls and partitions for as a work trade. zari was gonna help me by working hard and independantly while i taught two of the practitioners involved how to be carpenters but shes on her trip to india for a month and that makes me short one funny person i can text message good morning to at 530am and promptly get a mixed sort of response from and a good worker who i can depend on, fuck! instead i have a massage therapist and a yoga instructor, fuck! one is kinda lazy and whiney, the other is hard working and i'm going to make my prodigy. the lesson in this is the value of learning how to teach yr trade in or to better understand my work and also learn patience and solidify in my own mind that i am able to do this work on my own. i am a carpenter now, my hands are starting to look slightly beat up all the time and strong again and my fingertips are hard with caluses.
wishing i had more people in my life to talk to about magic...
ive been researching aleister crowley in a kind of weird way. who the fuck is that? and is that the guy from the ozzy song? yes and he's known as one of the western worlds most prolific public magicians, has written a bazillion books, was a crazy sexist, rumored to be into dark magic and had made up all these words. he had a lot of interests and one that particularly facsinates me is his work with sex magic.
what is sex magic you ask? well i'd love to tell you about it...
after talking to my dear friend, fellow initiate and mary flaming queen free about mr crowley at length ive come to some understanding about the matter even tho i still play with ideas in my mind... basically there is a hightened power in the sex act that comes to culmination in orgasm, hmm, i really like this wordy description i read in wikipedia better then my own description here...
The fundamental premise of sex magic is the concept that the sexual energy, or libido, of the human organism is the most potent force it contains, and harnessing the unique states that arise through sexual activity provides a special experiential conduit for the transcendence of nominal reality.
get it? like tantra and shit. alot of different culture use sex magic or sex in religious practice or mythology. obviously not everyone does it like aleister crowley, once deemed the worlds wickedest man. next time remember to make a wish.
in other news i'm going to thailand...
yup its true, thailand, the motherland march 27 to april 12. which puts me in a asian city or a beach paradise on my 27th birthday. i might be getting old but the idea of my birthday is really starting to depress me lately and i feel like a giant disapointment is waiting to blow up in my face. like i expect something shitty to happen prior to put a sour puss on everything. not very possi. so i decided that if i was in thailand on my birthday, at least i can have the memory of being in thailand for my birthday and hopefully itll make me feel better about life. plus, i really need a fucking a vacation, like a real one. ive been working pretty steady since last spring and i'm totally over it. plus my cousin jan is getting married and my brother and dad are going with me too--the boys. also zoeann will be there as she is there right now having the time of her fucking life without me, not for long tho! i'll be taking my first non-stop flight to thailand, which is insane and around 20 hours of plane ride. i'm totally gonna get a tattoo there.