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shalom!
life has been too much for me. its 8am and i've yet to sleep. i am years behind in my work. today i am just going to catch up and focus on being happy and not tumbling into a world of jagged rocks and suffocating depression. my mouse has this way of wandering if i am not using it. it drifts to the left. i think this is probably a bad thing. all i like to do these days is listen to really depressing music really loudly. tried to hang out with lindsay and chris as much as possible. this affected me in a way i could not have guessed. i must catch up in hebrew and calculus and history. fantastic.
i miss matt and dan and elspeth. elspeth and i used to talk everyday. now she leaves me AIM messages really early in the morning. i always miss them and i have been remiss in emailing anyone. i used to love to send emails. now it just seems like such a strain that i just can't be bothered. i dread the idea of summing up my life. i need to find a job that keeps me in money and distracts me from my life. i saw lauren tonight. in the cat's house. missed my cat but thats ok. he would have hated that party. which is probably why he was upstairs. i must get dan to come down and see me. or go up and see him. why does visiting my friends always involve so much money? i have NO money. i need to win the lottery. seriously.
rampage must be emailed. it has been far too long and i should probably rant at someone even if it is depressing. i must shower. i found a key on the ground the other day. i picked it up and put it in my pocket. it was a paper key. i need it to be warm outside. warmth will make things better. i can fish in the jordan river with a lifesaver on a string and draw outside.
life has been too much for me. its 8am and i've yet to sleep. i am years behind in my work. today i am just going to catch up and focus on being happy and not tumbling into a world of jagged rocks and suffocating depression. my mouse has this way of wandering if i am not using it. it drifts to the left. i think this is probably a bad thing. all i like to do these days is listen to really depressing music really loudly. tried to hang out with lindsay and chris as much as possible. this affected me in a way i could not have guessed. i must catch up in hebrew and calculus and history. fantastic.
i miss matt and dan and elspeth. elspeth and i used to talk everyday. now she leaves me AIM messages really early in the morning. i always miss them and i have been remiss in emailing anyone. i used to love to send emails. now it just seems like such a strain that i just can't be bothered. i dread the idea of summing up my life. i need to find a job that keeps me in money and distracts me from my life. i saw lauren tonight. in the cat's house. missed my cat but thats ok. he would have hated that party. which is probably why he was upstairs. i must get dan to come down and see me. or go up and see him. why does visiting my friends always involve so much money? i have NO money. i need to win the lottery. seriously.
rampage must be emailed. it has been far too long and i should probably rant at someone even if it is depressing. i must shower. i found a key on the ground the other day. i picked it up and put it in my pocket. it was a paper key. i need it to be warm outside. warmth will make things better. i can fish in the jordan river with a lifesaver on a string and draw outside.