I'm in a terrible place right now...
You never fully appreciate what you have until you lose it... You can't imagine how much losing something that really only happened once a week has started a snowball effect of bad feelings about myself and my life
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So I just got off the phone with Brooke, and over half the conversation was about how I feel like I have no one person to go to here. I have Justin, like you have Jason, but like you, I don't want to put him in that position to dump all these emotions and feelings on. I tried to go on a walk today and I got even more frustrated with myself. I couldn't even relax during Yoga, because I was just feeling so down. Not to mention completely overwhelmed with school. I feel like I have no friends and I am just falling behind with life. Where as everyone else has plenty of people to hang out with or go to in a time of need.
I remember when I could just go to your house and lay around with you (and Joe) and just talk about anything in the world. And I felt so care free. I know I shouldn't but sometimes I wish I was back there. But like you said "this will be a time when my character grows and changes by leaps and bounds." I just need to press forward through this rut, and look forward to the good things.
I hope you feel better by now, seeing as how you wrote this post almost 2 weeks ago. I know I feel better after reading it.
I can't wait to see you this weekend. I will give you a call tomorrow so we can try to make some plans.
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