amw

biking around Kamloops with a bumped head

Aug 23, 2020 18:06

I was going to go out for a quick bike ride today, but something very strange and alarming just happened. The world started closing in and i went into an odd déjà vu state, like i was very high on drugs, then i went to the bathroom and sat on the toilet and i couldn't breathe. I tried to get air into my lungs but it wasn't enough, then i blacked ( Read more... )

decrepit, bike, movement, canada fuck yeah

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carriea31 August 24 2020, 01:24:55 UTC

I am going to hope that this incident was caused by dehydration and overexertion in a new climate. It sounds very scary and I am glad you seem ok now. Definitely glad you decided to relax for the day.

You saw some beautiful places and I enjoy the photos.

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fflo August 24 2020, 03:40:27 UTC
The water in that lake looks like it's in an almost-photorealistic painting.

But mostly I'm here to say that losing consciousness like that is not something most folks would be casual about. Do you qualify for universal healthcare, on accounta being in Canada? Maybe take advantage of it, or of your considerable savings?

I realize there may be reasons you don't want to consult physicians. I'd just like to encourage whatever part of you might want to. I mean, I like your posts in my feed, you know? Want them to keep coming for a long time.

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amw August 30 2020, 17:19:15 UTC
My new phone has some sort of "moving picture mode" and it makes a lot of photos come out looking interesting and dreamlike ( ... )

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fflo August 30 2020, 17:45:52 UTC
I'm glad you're feeling better. :)

What with being all up in the recovery community, and being on the Al-Anon/Adult Children side of things more, when I hear of a connection to alcohol and drug use, I naturally think from the POV. And I imagine how that first instance of blacking out would be scary, and maybe prompt someone coming to the rooms, or how if not then, when it happened again, or in a new or different scary way, maybe that would. Part of my disease is hoping for that from others, tho, and I'm glad to say I am better and better at not trying to steer anyone in that regard! Just confessing it in that full-disclosure sense.

I'm down here getting more & more scared we might not get rid of Trump. It's so weird, the way something like the Medicare for All movement is so broadly supported by the population, but here not only may we may not get movement toward it, but the crappy candidate who rejects it may not even get Trump out of office.

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amw August 30 2020, 20:32:14 UTC
My ex was in NA. Still is, i think. I carried her one year keychain around the world with me to remind me never to overdo it. I only just dumped it recently, since it was unnecessary weight in my pack. I found the meetings really tough to deal with because of the social aspects, but it's good to know they're there for the people that need them. I have definitely been in some bad holes in the past, but i think i've mostly stayed on the side of not falling too far down. I think for me going out solo (whether hiking or whatever) where i really need to depend on myself to survive helps to remind me there is something to stay sober for, if that makes sense ( ... )

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meowmensteen August 24 2020, 04:12:17 UTC
Yeah, maybe take it easy. That sounds like a scary experience.

I've lived by a rail yard for so many years that it feels unnerving when I sleep somewhere else. Somewhere quiet. I need to train noises at night to sleep with ease. Luckily the part of the city I live in has bridges over the rails so I don't have to wait for them to pass to get places. Instead I can stand over them and look down on the long trains.

All your shots are beautiful and the colors are vivid.

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amw August 30 2020, 17:22:56 UTC
When i lived in Toronto i was right opposite a subway yard, which is one of the reasons why the apartment was "cheap" (still expensive). Subway yards are a bit less interesting, though, since they just park the trains up at night and move them in the morning. But freight yards, man, they are shuffling these things back and forth all the time. It's really neat.

I have to thank my new phone for the colors. I think this camera defaults to HDR by default, hence the rich colors, but i also think it's causing pictures to come out a bit blurry. I guess i should experiment by turning it off as well. Normally i don't spend a lot of time to frame stuff up, though, i just point and shoot, so i don't think about taking it off the defaults.

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opakele August 24 2020, 04:22:28 UTC
I think taking it easy for a while is a good idea. That sounds scary.

Love the pictures. It looks like a beautiful place.

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olamina August 24 2020, 04:36:12 UTC

If you can possibly be seen to, that'd be I think a good thing. Do you have to register with the province before you can go to a clinic?

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amw August 30 2020, 17:24:15 UTC
Yeah, it's a 3 month waiting period. I don't have any way to prove my address because i don't have a rental agreement, but last week i sent a letter to myself, so i'm hoping the postmark will be enough to get me on the list.

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