At the coffee shop.
So i've screwed things up. Bad. I'm trying to be friends with him but this is so hard. Not to touch him or anything. Even just his little comments hurt me. But i jump at every oppertunity to see him. Last night i went to Dunn Brother's coffee when he asked me. He said "Hey sexy." I don't want him to say anything like that to me if he isn't going to do anything about it. So this is how it feels to get your heart broken. I feel like i did with Greg. Like life won't go on. At least i never had to see Greg again.
I haven't slept in a day now. I doubt i can sleep today. I can't even sleep in my bed. I don't even want to be in my room. Thats why i just leave and walk around or watch TV. I can't stand it there. I want to go home. Farther away from Neil. He doesn't know how much this hurts me. I have to look happy and cheerful around him. So he doesn't suspect that i hurt. I already screwed up by saying too much on how i feel. Everytime i close my eyes, i see him. I see that look he used to give me. That i now don't receive anymore.
I feel like he is just going to move on and forget about me. Like i can do nothing to fix this and get him back. I was so happy with him. He made my day whenever he came by. I couldn't get enough of him and then i had to go and screw it up somehow. It always happens that way. Everything is going good and then i HAVE to do something. I didn't even know what i did. I just need to move on. Be alone and except fate. Fate is cruel sometimes. You can't always get what you want.
Sad Mary.
I haven't slept in a day now. I doubt i can sleep today. I can't even sleep in my bed. I don't even want to be in my room. Thats why i just leave and walk around or watch TV. I can't stand it there. I want to go home. Farther away from Neil. He doesn't know how much this hurts me. I have to look happy and cheerful around him. So he doesn't suspect that i hurt. I already screwed up by saying too much on how i feel. Everytime i close my eyes, i see him. I see that look he used to give me. That i now don't receive anymore.
I feel like he is just going to move on and forget about me. Like i can do nothing to fix this and get him back. I was so happy with him. He made my day whenever he came by. I couldn't get enough of him and then i had to go and screw it up somehow. It always happens that way. Everything is going good and then i HAVE to do something. I didn't even know what i did. I just need to move on. Be alone and except fate. Fate is cruel sometimes. You can't always get what you want.
Sad Mary.