Adult ADD
So we are going on day 3 of the sleepless nights. I think I've had about 2 hours the past 3 nights. Hmm...isn't this the time where I start to hallucinate? Hey, I welcome it, at least I wont be bored.
Had my Active Directory final tonight. I royally fucked up on it. That final was the biggest bitch I have ever come across. I don't understand why I messed up so bad, I studied for 2 days straight...so it wasn't like I wasn't prepared for it. I did pretty kick ass on the practical portion, but WTF? Heh, I guess its just the perfectionist in me.
So I'm kind of depressed about the final. This isn't even half as bad as when I would mess up or lose with my music competitions. Jeez...if I fucked up on a solo or didn't get as high of a score as I wanted, I would fall into a deep depression. I was sooo competitive with this sort of thing. WAS? Hell, I'm still super competitive. I just hate to lose at anything. I guess that's just the Aries in me.
I recently read that Aries and Libras are a perfect match...well as perfect as perfection can go. From what this says, opposites attract. I need an Air sign to cool down my Fire sign...ok...that wasn't suppose to sound as cheesy as it did...wow.
I've been playing Super Mario Bros. 3 non-stop. I think it's becoming an addiction. For some reason I can't get past World 6...I've done it before. Damn those ice levels...always tryna fuck with me.
I have so much in my head right now. I can't make it stop...but at the same time I can't put it into words. I mean...I can...but I can only speak them. They lose all meaning when they are spewed through my fingertips. Makes them less valuable.
Tomorrow (or today, however you view the world...lets just say Friday) is my last day at Gap Inc. Wow...this chapter of my life is now ending. I'm beginning to feel sad, not for leaving the job, but for leaving all my co-workers. I have never worked in a place where I liked the majority of the people. I only dislike 2 out of 25 people I work with. So in a sense I'm leaving my second family and going to a completely new family. We work in the not so popular dept. at Gap Inc...so guaranteed if you ask everyone in this dept what their fave thing about working with Gap is...99.9% will say their co-workers. Plain and simple, tomorrow is going to be a very hard day for me.
Well...World 6 is calling my name. I'm off to conquer the world...