3D Loser
There are times when I think so highly of myself, and then there are times where I only see myself as a loser...a dumbass...and all the other names that I could call myself. I wonder if everyone else goes from one end of the spectrum to the other. Self esteem?? Who knows...maybe I would be a major ego head if I always though highly of myself...::shrugs::
I haven't been able to sleep again. My good nights were limited I guess. I think I got a full week of 4-6 hours of sleep per night. Now I'm back to maybe an hour...two hours TOPS. A lot on my mind I guess...I wish I could turn off my brain when it is bed time. Just a magical switch that I could mess with. But then I'd abuse that switch and always be off...hmm not a bad idea. I am going to invent it I tells ya! Heh...
I love being friends with just boys. Most guys don't act normal around you when your a girl. There is this one guy at school that would censor himself in front of me...lol...i thought it was hilarious that he would. He wouldn't crack obscene jokes...wouldn't cuss...and then he would get embarrassed when someone else did when it was in front of me. He's finally warmed up to the fact that I think 99.9% of what they say is freakin funny. Tonight was the worst of the worst though. A non-stop discussion about masturbation....like...nasty details...to say the least some of the stuff they said made me blush...and that is VERY VERY VERY hard to do.
I just giggled and shifted in my chair...boys are fun. I love being the only girl in class...I dominate! haha...
Today marks the first day I dropped my Sidekick. I almost cried. We were taking an exam in class and the professor wanted us to put our cell phones on top of the monitors...I didn't want to because I know my phone would fall off. So I put it on the side of the desk and...one swift movement of my stupid hand made it fly off the desk...and BAM onto the floor. The backbutton flew off, I thought I was going to cry right then and there. But it snapped right back into place and all is well...THANK GOD.
I love that phone so much...its kind of getting to be sickening.
I love something that loves me back...uncondintional.
I haven't been able to sleep again. My good nights were limited I guess. I think I got a full week of 4-6 hours of sleep per night. Now I'm back to maybe an hour...two hours TOPS. A lot on my mind I guess...I wish I could turn off my brain when it is bed time. Just a magical switch that I could mess with. But then I'd abuse that switch and always be off...hmm not a bad idea. I am going to invent it I tells ya! Heh...
I love being friends with just boys. Most guys don't act normal around you when your a girl. There is this one guy at school that would censor himself in front of me...lol...i thought it was hilarious that he would. He wouldn't crack obscene jokes...wouldn't cuss...and then he would get embarrassed when someone else did when it was in front of me. He's finally warmed up to the fact that I think 99.9% of what they say is freakin funny. Tonight was the worst of the worst though. A non-stop discussion about masturbation....like...nasty details...to say the least some of the stuff they said made me blush...and that is VERY VERY VERY hard to do.
I just giggled and shifted in my chair...boys are fun. I love being the only girl in class...I dominate! haha...
Today marks the first day I dropped my Sidekick. I almost cried. We were taking an exam in class and the professor wanted us to put our cell phones on top of the monitors...I didn't want to because I know my phone would fall off. So I put it on the side of the desk and...one swift movement of my stupid hand made it fly off the desk...and BAM onto the floor. The backbutton flew off, I thought I was going to cry right then and there. But it snapped right back into place and all is well...THANK GOD.
I love that phone so much...its kind of getting to be sickening.
I love something that loves me back...uncondintional.