I put L-O-V-E in you
I sat here for about 30 minutes before I started to type. My mind has lost the ability to think....how to feel. It has its moments where its severely mad, sad, lost....never happy though. I think I am officially gone. Don't I get a party for something like this???
The job is pretty different. A different environment. My first day I was thinking I had made a major mistake by leaving the Gap, more because I missed everyone. I went from knowing and being comfortable with all my co-workers...to being alone with no one to talk to. Don't get me wrong, everyone is supppper nice.
Now I am getting better, meeting more people...getting more in touch with my new work.
School is out for me...well...only for 2 weeks. Too bad I can't enjoy it. Oh-well, this new job is going to do a lot for my career...not to mention its going to help me get a new car!!! Yeah...my Mistsubishi is boring me already...I need a change.
It's funny how just ONE person can hurt you, can shake all of your emotions to the core. It seriously amazes me... How I can love someone with all my heart, and then have them turn around and kill my spirit. This is why I NEVER let anyone in. I have given my heart twice before and have been royally fucked over. Wait....now its 3 times. I am seriously done with everything that requires my love....emotions....and time.
If that person doesn't even have the decency to care for my feelings....then what can I do???
I have never had my heart...broken like this before. Maybe I actually experienced true love...and this is how it hurts when its gone....rather ripped away from me. I said this sooooo many times before, MAYBE I AM DESTINED TO BE ALONE!
Maybe it's just that simple...
The job is pretty different. A different environment. My first day I was thinking I had made a major mistake by leaving the Gap, more because I missed everyone. I went from knowing and being comfortable with all my co-workers...to being alone with no one to talk to. Don't get me wrong, everyone is supppper nice.
Now I am getting better, meeting more people...getting more in touch with my new work.
School is out for me...well...only for 2 weeks. Too bad I can't enjoy it. Oh-well, this new job is going to do a lot for my career...not to mention its going to help me get a new car!!! Yeah...my Mistsubishi is boring me already...I need a change.
It's funny how just ONE person can hurt you, can shake all of your emotions to the core. It seriously amazes me... How I can love someone with all my heart, and then have them turn around and kill my spirit. This is why I NEVER let anyone in. I have given my heart twice before and have been royally fucked over. Wait....now its 3 times. I am seriously done with everything that requires my love....emotions....and time.
If that person doesn't even have the decency to care for my feelings....then what can I do???
I have never had my heart...broken like this before. Maybe I actually experienced true love...and this is how it hurts when its gone....rather ripped away from me. I said this sooooo many times before, MAYBE I AM DESTINED TO BE ALONE!
Maybe it's just that simple...