what it is to burn

[amgb]

a good friend asked me today if i had any regrets about things i didnt do this summer... i found this question really hard to answer, and i couldnt pinpoint why. i thought maybe b/c i wasnt being asked about a spacific thing that i didnt do i was having trouble coming up w/ my own... but i have been thinking about it, its more like that i simply

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regret

[anonymous]

I envy anyone that goes through life without regrets. I see almost all mistakes as regrets. In many situations, I truly wish things would have been different even if it costs the wisdom I gained. When I look back at many things in my life, I wish that my response would have been different... more importantly that the result wouldve been different. Countless times I've done something and wished I hadn't or not done something I should have or perhaps even just done something differently. Each time I feel this way, each time I fail, each time I fall, memories spring forth of past regrets, past failings. So, each time I get up, I have to deal with not just one failure, but a dozen. Thinking, wondering, coulda, shoulda, woulda, is all useless and in fact detrimental. But at the same time, the train of one's thoughts cannot easily be derailed and when the thoughts smack your consciousness it hits just as hard as a train. You get hit, you fall, you get hurt, you bleed, and the pain swells. You sit and wallow in your own pain drowning and all