what it is to burn
a good friend asked me today if i had any regrets about things i didnt do this summer... i found this question really hard to answer, and i couldnt pinpoint why. i thought maybe b/c i wasnt being asked about a spacific thing that i didnt do i was having trouble coming up w/ my own... but i have been thinking about it, its more like that i simply dont like having regrets in life. yes i make mistakes, i have a plethara of those, but not regrets. i try my best, i dont take back, shoulda coulda wouldas dont work for me, they dont do me any good except make me sad instead of learning from my mistakes so i simply dont do the wrong things again or so i learn to do thing the first time, i dont regret not doing something. i think i have only one thing that i truely regret. once when i was still in high school a friendly accaintance was at the same play as me, but she was there w/ her youth group, and very excited about it. she asked me if i wanted to meet them and i said no....that was stupid of me, i saw the dissapointment in her eyes, all b/c i was too lazy or inconsiderate to be social and meet some ( i am sure) very nice awsome people, i havnt talked to her since, but i wish i could have changed that and just met them... my only regret... interesting that it is so small, yet it has stuck w/ me the most, even though i have much bigger mistakes...i dont know why, maybe the others i figure i have learned so much since from that, that if i didnt make those mistakes in my life i wouldnt have the valuable information i have now, ... i honestly dont know why.. but the important thing is that regrets and mistakes and being sorry are all compleatly different...