money is funny

[ameri_13]

I see people at welfare all the time and they get so much money from the government that they don't need, they just want. It's only obvious they don't feel guilty or useless, which is so wierd because when I get money from anyone for not working or doing anything for them I feel so ashamed, and as if I don't deserve it. I want to be able to earn my money the right way and work my butt off for my money even if it's not as much as I would get by sitting on my lazy butt and asking the government for help. Cyndy over here who is "so sick" gets a disability check each month worth $600 because she had cancer in her mouth and was socialy impaired...which basically means she couldn't make friends! Now does that mean I could go apply for disability because ummmm.... I stubbed my big toe and it hurts and...I have too many bugers in my nose?!?!?! That is just out of this world I think.I would be working right now but stupid doctors at the hospital and my special doctor say I'm "high risk" and can't be doing too much. I'm basically on bed rest but am able to get up and do things I need to do. Well actually when I think of it, living here taking my mom places and doing things for Lydia ALL THE TIME is a lot of work. I would think that I would be able to lay down, take naps, like I should, watch tv, eat as much as I can, and do nothing, but instead I'm always up and down stairs, or going back and forth into town for certain things or helping someone do something like clean houses and such.well I'm ranting on about nothing...so I'm slowly waiting to go back to El Paso!!! I want to go shopping down there cause up here everything is so expensive! oh man, like gas!! geez $2.80 a gallon now!! man o man!! I'm really annoyed with people lately. I think I'm like a ticking time bomb, I'm going to explode on someone around me real soon! well I guess I should go lay down since I need lots of rest and my back hurts me when I'm up for too long.
Brandy

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