answer me
Where are my emotions? Where is that lift, that magical raise given by the power of life. Where is my soul? A little over a year ago my emotions, everything I am drained out of me without reason.
and so good bye to the girlfriend
and so good bye to the dreams
and so good bye to everything
and don’t think I didn’t hurt others on the way
and don’t think what they did didn’t hurt me - emotions or not, I felt the sting.
I tried to carry on, to find a way to be a good person, to return to who I am - or at the very least to return to the person I always pretended to be. Yet, here I am. Still stagnate. There are reasons, looked like Mom was having strokes and Sean was borderline for suicide for a long time. What of it though, by now I should feel something, by now I should have moved on and forward. By now I should feel.
I should feel.
I always used to feel.
God, a’lord in heaven, where has my heart gone and what must I do to get it back?
and so good bye to the girlfriend
and so good bye to the dreams
and so good bye to everything
and don’t think I didn’t hurt others on the way
and don’t think what they did didn’t hurt me - emotions or not, I felt the sting.
I tried to carry on, to find a way to be a good person, to return to who I am - or at the very least to return to the person I always pretended to be. Yet, here I am. Still stagnate. There are reasons, looked like Mom was having strokes and Sean was borderline for suicide for a long time. What of it though, by now I should feel something, by now I should have moved on and forward. By now I should feel.
I should feel.
I always used to feel.
God, a’lord in heaven, where has my heart gone and what must I do to get it back?