who's sleeping on my side of the bed tonight?
i loathe guys. no, this isn't some plea for attention, it's true. i really dislike the male gender...well, at least the ones who aren't my friends. i don't like dating anymore. i don't like boyfriends anymore. i don't like being hit on by strange men who have to talk about how much money they make or where they work within the first 20 seconds to meeting me.
i mean, it's all been shit. yes, i've had some gems in the muck, but in general... the guys for me are my friends.
but, i get the feeling this one guy friend likes me a little more than he should. it scares me... i'm really paranoid now, and i don't know what i'd do if it turned out to be true. i love him to death as a friend, but it can't be anything more. i just can't see myself with a guy like him... he's too controlling... too opinionated. we'd fight all of the time, and neither one of us would give in. i just know it. i need freedom and independence in a relationship. perhaps that's why i'm just not cut out to be with anyone right now. i haven't found anyone who can balance my freespiritedness in their life.
yes, i was supposed to have a date the other night, last night. well, unfortunately, the guy's grandpa was sent to the hospital and his whole family went to stay with him until they were sure things were okay. we've dated since december... he's a great guy and everything. but, i don't know. i'm apathetic.
time to lay out. i had to buy some one-piece bathing suits today for camp... not cute at all. i tried to get the trendiest ones they had.. and the ones that didn't have big sailor stripes and anchors on them.. but one pieces SUCK. i want to have a tan stomach this summer, too.
the bonus. free membership to the gym. i'll be cut, tan, and really blonde this summer.
it shall be fuckin' grand.
oh, yeah.. i've been researching my future endeavors a lot. and while andie is dead set on california, i really think my heart is on the east coast. that's where i planned on moving post-graduation anyway. i would love to live near the ocean and be out there with a girlfriend... but, gosh...i just don't know. i've been looking most seriously at masassas, virginia. it'll be expensive as hell in the town, but they are hiring about 500 educators for the next school year. i'm hoping fate will work in my favor here. i may not have a good guy in my life, but i hope i have a good job with lovely LITTLE kids. the kind that draw pictures of me with yellow hair, pink and puple dresses, and flowers. i love those drawings. i will post some pictures on myspace of them soon.. they are adorable.
--meg
i mean, it's all been shit. yes, i've had some gems in the muck, but in general... the guys for me are my friends.
but, i get the feeling this one guy friend likes me a little more than he should. it scares me... i'm really paranoid now, and i don't know what i'd do if it turned out to be true. i love him to death as a friend, but it can't be anything more. i just can't see myself with a guy like him... he's too controlling... too opinionated. we'd fight all of the time, and neither one of us would give in. i just know it. i need freedom and independence in a relationship. perhaps that's why i'm just not cut out to be with anyone right now. i haven't found anyone who can balance my freespiritedness in their life.
yes, i was supposed to have a date the other night, last night. well, unfortunately, the guy's grandpa was sent to the hospital and his whole family went to stay with him until they were sure things were okay. we've dated since december... he's a great guy and everything. but, i don't know. i'm apathetic.
time to lay out. i had to buy some one-piece bathing suits today for camp... not cute at all. i tried to get the trendiest ones they had.. and the ones that didn't have big sailor stripes and anchors on them.. but one pieces SUCK. i want to have a tan stomach this summer, too.
the bonus. free membership to the gym. i'll be cut, tan, and really blonde this summer.
it shall be fuckin' grand.
oh, yeah.. i've been researching my future endeavors a lot. and while andie is dead set on california, i really think my heart is on the east coast. that's where i planned on moving post-graduation anyway. i would love to live near the ocean and be out there with a girlfriend... but, gosh...i just don't know. i've been looking most seriously at masassas, virginia. it'll be expensive as hell in the town, but they are hiring about 500 educators for the next school year. i'm hoping fate will work in my favor here. i may not have a good guy in my life, but i hope i have a good job with lovely LITTLE kids. the kind that draw pictures of me with yellow hair, pink and puple dresses, and flowers. i love those drawings. i will post some pictures on myspace of them soon.. they are adorable.
--meg