1-14-07
I spent 2 hours at the gym today. I ate about 500 calories. Which consisted of greenbeans, rice, and 4 pringles. I feel I have no self-control. I need to do do school work. I am failing at life. I have no car, no job, I can't stop eating, and I'm failing 3 out of 5 classes. I need help, I need to be in a institution. If I can't manage life by myself I obviously need lots of help. I'm sick to my stomach over eating so much and not soing school work. I need to be better. I have to do school work, work out 4 hours a day, eat much less, get a job, help out at home more, and see my friends more often. I feel insane. Am I insane? For wanting to be perfect? I'm sick and shaking because I don't have perfection. I don't know what to do.
I am worthless.
The world would be better off with out me.
I am worthless.
The world would be better off with out me.