Haven't written in here in awhile
Well, I'm terrified of living again. I don't get it, things were going so well. But, I'm down because I can't stand to see people doing better than me which everyone is. So, I just don't want to live. I don't think I can achieve anything. "Try then, Allyssa" it's hard to try when you have ZERO motivation. And the most control you have of your life is a weight/eating obsession. Nothing is the way I want it to be "Fix it then, Allyssa" again with the motivation. I re-opened my early childhood dream of being a model, but I will never get there. I have no one to help and no money to get started with. Besides the fact I could stand to lose 20-30 pounds.
I'm doing well with eating and such over the past few days.
height:5'6
current weight: 148
short term goal: 130
long term goal:115
I'm not sure I want to be around to see tomorrow. But I know I will be.
I'm doing well with eating and such over the past few days.
height:5'6
current weight: 148
short term goal: 130
long term goal:115
I'm not sure I want to be around to see tomorrow. But I know I will be.